Husband and Wife

There are moments in life when we are sitting with our spouses and we hear them talking but we are listening to our own minds chatter more than what our spouse is communicating. But the same is true sometimes for the person that is rambling on, they get so caught up in their own thoughts that they don't even know what they just said.

After my husband got home last night I shared with him that I would like to continue a conversation that we had last week that fell by the wayside. The conversation we were having on our way to Dallas Friday night was how important and powerful our words are, but I told him that words mean nothing if there isn't action behind them.

Of course my husband did his usual and agreed with me as I rambled on wanting to have a deeper level of understanding and awareness. So shortly after I said my peace the conversation died. I hate it when that happens. I'm in the middle of a break through and hubby gets in his head. And that's what's happening. The information is coming in so fast and furious he's just been struck by lightening. LOL

So I insisted that he sit and chat with me last night because I wanted to know more of where we were no longer aligned, as a couple, with our words or actions. You see I can be in alignment with what I say and do, but as a couple we are committed to some form of alignment as male and female. Of course he sat and pondered on this and then we did our process in order to help ourselves with our clues.

Upon asking him what is it that we are seeing he said, "We need to know where we stand". Of course we do! We all need to know where we stand, and how do we find this out. Of course I thought it was about us maybe financially, personally, or maybe just emotionally, but I couldn't let it go. We quickly started looking at where we stood with everything and put it behind us.

At 1am I am wide awake, something isn't complete. I open the Bible and there is the Lord's prayer, something that I repeat over and over again at night until I fall asleep. But I didn't do that this time, and for good reason. As I looked at those words in the bible they were different than the words I had been using. There it was, "Forgive our debts as we forgive our debtors". I went back to bed and repeated the Lord's prayer and immediately began to question what debt and what debtors, how do we know.

I turned on the bedroom light and began to write out what I got upset about that day. I realized I was really upset about a superintendent spending the towns money of person gains, and I was also upset at Camping. So as I did the process, which I will not share here because I've also been given insist that not everyone is ready for this level of awareness and that it is perfectly fine for them to be where they are.

It was through these people that I "thought" were creating debt for themselves was the debt I was creating for only me. You see there are so many blessings that our brothers are assisting us with each and everyday. Many of us will not or cannot take on that kind of responsibility because it hurts too much. We would rather just sweep it under the rug and continue to blame another for what is going on in the world.

But if our world is internal, and if our heaven is here on earth, and if our bodies are the church then how can we even ever, ever, ever say that someone else did anything to us? What we think another is doing to us we are doing to ourselves. It might take a moment to find it but it's there.

When you find this source of self sure there will be some pain involved as it's removed. It's like the staple stuck in your finger, you might not feel it while you just leave it alone but try pulling the damn thing out and you're going to feel something, even if it just hurts a little bit.

So why do we ramble in our own heads when others are speaking to us? Because we're afraid of what they are going to say that might, just might wake our ass up.

Wake up!