As I meditated on Nun today my awareness was brought to Jonah when swallowed up by the whale. Immediately, immediately I then heard a voice say, "He was in the belly for three days and you will have a total lunar eclipse to follow." I thought Wow, I wonder what all this will bring and mean.
Of course Nun is asking us to reflect but to also have faith. There are things that no longer serve us in our lives, but sometimes we are unwilling to change or give up ideas, ways, beliefs or anything else that brought us to this point in reality because of fear.
We are fearful that if we don't hold onto these ideas how will we ever be free. Which leads me to the next question that aroused as I was meditating.
"Velvete, what will it take for you to experience freedom?" I thought about all the things that I whine about and how much I've suffered here and suffered there, but then understood that all of that wasn't real. The suffering was still my own projection of lack. What was that lack? LOVE. All I wanted was to be loved. And because this is all I ever wanted I projected attack, hate, fear, and violence. I was like the wounded puppy that would just keep being run over and over again.
Then I remembered that when I felt the most bondage is when I wanted to sing and dance the most. It was through this ability that I was able to wake myself up out of hell. And as I sat with all the things that a person could ever want did I really have any reason to complain? Did I have anything that I lacked or needed in my life? The answer was only one thing, LOVE.
Things don't bring us love, things don't give us love and the more "stuff" that we have or don't have doesn't fulfill this basic core desire. You see we all long to be loved and wanted in life. This is only because we believe that we are separated from Source/Love. So we go out and think, "Well if I have all of this stuff then I'll feel better about myself." But we quickly learn that that is short lived. Oh sure you might feel good for a month, maybe two but then it quickly needs replacing in order for us to feel full of life again.
The Winter Solstice is in just 2 more days, Tuesday. Nun started yesterday for many of us, so here we are in the belly of the whale, here we find life instead of death, here we are renewed. Last year we experience a blue moon while bringing in the New Year. On December 21, 2010 we will be experiencing a full moon in Gemini.
The Moon represents water, womb, female and emotions; and because there is a retrograde that is occurring to we are being asked to look at our forms of communication and how we are dealing with ourselves. Folks, we are literally being asked to go within the belly of the whale, view what ideas and beliefs are no longer serving us and lift them up and out into the light, which will bring us life.
This could not have been planned better but by God. You see when I put this class together I was led to do it right at this time in life. The travels through the waters can be difficult but worth every bit of it.
So I will let you rest within on this one and keep Nun close to your heart today as you go through the transitions.
Belief statement: There is nothing that I want more in life than love and this feels excited and renewed. I know that moving can be strange but I know I gain awareness while losing everything.
Spirit Statement: Everything is life and love and is exciting and renewed moving beyond this awareness into everything.
Love, V
