Meditating on Samech this morning was a struggle. It seemed that I was having a power struggle with my own mind. Of course Samech is offering us to find balance in giving and receiving, supportiveness and secrecy. This is a very fine line when it comes to knowing when to give it up and when to hold it back.
I thought about all the Christmas goodies I made for the neighbors and had placed them on their porches or mailboxes without letting them know it was from me. I didn't want anyone to know who had given them this jar of treats, but then I became fearful. Something so good was turning into fear for me. I realized that there is still so much out there to learn about our willingness to be open and share. You see those people that received those gifts may not have taken them in because they didn't know who, or where they came from. It was then I was witnessing my own fear of the unknown. Who cares if they enjoyed the present or threw it away? The gifts were made with peace and love! It was only the attachment I was now putting on it that was robbing me of my focus, energy and time. What attachment was that? That someone would not enjoy what I gave them because they would not know who it was from?
LOL...I had to laugh because what difference would it make. I know the presents are safe, I know they were made with love, and I know that no matter what they will not know who gave them those jars of treats, (well except the people that were home that came to the doors). But still what was it within me that could not find peace in giving a gift in secrecy?
It was deeper than all of this put together. It was about my inability to keep secrets within myself. I had trouble with people saying, "Now keep this a secret." I felt in some way that meant for me to lie. But through this experience I have learned that the secret is a valuable jewel within me and that if I go about spreading it or sharing it without paying attention to where or to whom it is going it could be thrown away.
But who cares? Well, there is a time to be open and sharing and then another time to keep it zipped up. I can't begin to tell you how many times I shared information with folks and never saw them again. They were fearful, I made them fearful from the secrets or mysteries of life that I was shown or given. There is balance within this sharing and we know when it's appropriate to do so when we listen to our inner self. There are times that we are just to let everyone know where the gift is coming from. This allows them to feel confident and comfortable that someone else cares about them.
There is really nothing outside of us! All and everything is within us. We are always safe! But it's only when we "think" someone needs to know something to help them that we have truly disconnected from the mysteries. Even if we "think" that person isn't ready for the information I'm able to share is still the same thing. There is a time and season for everything and when we allow God to be the shield of our hearts all is well.
As I finished up the meditation I asked God to show me a little more. I saw this man carrying this shield in front of his heart. Suddenly I see him moving around the pillar and out of nowhere comes Medusa. As she was looking for him he kept his shield close to his heart. Suddenly he's in a corner and notices her reflection in the shield, it is here he knows that he can kill her.
Two ways were reminded to me, one way was the shield goes up and Medusa turns to stone as she looks at her own reflection. The other way he uses the shield to know where she is and cuts her head off. Either way is still symbolic.
You see, we are reminded with Samech to use the shields of our hearts to look at our reflections so as to understand and know what no longer serves us. When we look at the reflections then we are able to cut those things that are blocking us from moving forward out of our lives for good.
I found comfort in this because God was letting me know that while I was protecting my heart with my shield that I was able to reflect on the situation without projecting into it and successfully received the mystery within the illusion.
All we have to do is ask and we will receive. We are given guidance and Samech is here to let us know that no matter what we've got going on that we are completely protected through it all. So if you find yourself being uneasy about something that you've done then reflect on the deeper meaning to it all.
Wow, I love that we have so much support in our lives to help guide us through this illusion. I am feeling open and ready today.
Belief Statement: I laid in bed this morning giving thanks for all the things in my life and this felt joyous. I thought about all the things that had happened that have brought me where I am today. I gained awareness while losing nothing.
Spirit Statement: I am the morning of thanks and joyous know that all is well now with awareness in everything.
Love, V
