The Hebrew letter Dalet means "door" or "threshold" and we are being asked today to reflect on how we have closed our door on receiving as well as the true meaning of our wealth.
As I was in meditation, meditating only on the symbol of Dalet I realized that this was an open form. It was not closed, nor did it have the other side of what we call a door. But if you look at Dalet it appears to be a door already open, just waiting for someone to come through it, or go through it. It was at that very moment I realized that our gift, our wealth is always open to us.
But what blocks this doorway, or threshold in our true ability to receive? All of a sudden I saw all the identities that I have played. All the parts even in just one life that made me feel that I was guilty, underserving, or less than the person that I truly was. I realized at that moment that it was the attachments that we put on who we "think" we should be or want to be, or are afraid to be that blocks our true wealth.
When I stopped caring about what other people thought of me I experienced such a relief. Like I really, really, really didn't care whether you liked me or not, whether you thought my clothes looked good or not, or that each hair on my head was perfect. I knew at that moment that people see what they want to see, and ultimately they are only going to see what they want no matter how hard I try to "become" what they want me to become or be.
But then I realized something else. That all those times that I was told my hair didn't look good, or that I needed to wear make-up, or don't wear that that makes you look fat was only me! It was only me attaching the thoughts and ideas to really make sure I was not going to fit through that door. And the reason I wanted to make sure I wasn't going to fit through this doorway was to keep me from my wealth.
The wealth of all that I am and want to be. The person that can be happy, free to be, and loving every moment of my experience. I projected so far out into the world that I forgot that the only doorway was right in my own mind. I had removed myself so far from my wealth that I now was sure that suffering did exist. I could prove it to you without a shadow of a doubt that it exist. All along forgetting more and more of who or what I was, a child of God.
During the meditation I saw the image of where the rich man comes up to Jesus and says, "How can I get into heaven?" And Jesus tells him to get rid of all his material riches. The man looks sad and begins to move on knowing that he could never do that, he'd work too hard to be where he thought he was. Jesus was not saying there was anything wrong with material wealth, as long as our identity is clear. And remember how high this wagon was piled high with stuff. Well the man was making sure he wasn't going to fit through any door with all his attachments. We can't go through with attachments because those belong to ego.
When I released the attachment of the identity that I had to be a successful business woman and complete understood that this wanting success was blocking me from my true success then everything fell into place.
You see when we don't want to become something now we are attached to that identity as well. No matter how hard not to be this or that, now everyone will see us as that because we are projecting that. The same is true when we are really trying to be something too, like a successful business partner. If you are "trying" so be it, but truly look at why you are attached to that identity and how it's keep your doors closed to other possibilities.
So DaLet me open that for you is about letting you know that the door is already open. All you have to do is know where your true wealth comes from! Within! And that it's only been your ideas that have kept you separated from the heart of the matter.
Belief Statement: I wanted to be the best in everything that I did and this made me feel stressed. I didn't understand my need to be first but I gained focus on myself while losing peace.
Spirit Statement: I am everything being comforted knowing being present is focus within self with peace.
You see there is no real first or last, they are both the same. In the Dalet, which is number 4 which sounds like door, we can see that there is union while being supported. And 2x4= 8 which is infinity. So there you have it, you can jump through hoops and loops but the reality of it is it continues for as long as you need it to.
What identity are you ready to shed? What personality is your director? If you are suffering then your imagination is playing with you. But your suffering is your way out as well. All you have to do is choose to go through the door!
Be good, V
