Homeowners Insurance

This morning while drinking hot tea and visiting with Dwayne I shared with him how I was up most of the night with this ability just to create. I started an e-book last night and put together one full class. But then we also talked about what is going on for people around us, which is still our reflection.

We have two people in our lives that sewage backed up into their houses because of main line issues. We sat and discussed it a bit and we had some hits, but more misses. Then as we are getting ready to share breakfast together I see this ad pop up on my computer. "What your homeowners insurance doesn't cover can cost you."

Knowing that all things are a reflection and God speaking to me I knew He was assisting me in my self discovery. I understood that "homeowner" is our own spiritual body that's truly are only home. "Insurance" is the reserve for emergency's or when we need a little extra help along the way. What I realized next blew my mind.

What your Spirit Energy Reserve doesn't cover can cost you. And that's exactly what was happening to me, us. We were putting so much out there to obtain a level of awareness that we were missing the mark. We had become so self absorbed in obtaining enlightenment, thinking that it would lead to total liberation that we forgot how to live. We were being real any more. We couldn't connect with folks. My Spirit Energy Reserve was being diminished and it was costing me.

Before working on this paper I decided to draw a card. I told God that I really needed His help right now in my clarity of choice and decisions that were unfolding for me. When would I get my answer and could He give it to me NOW?

I drew the letter Mem, "Compatience" is written on this card. But what was really an exciting moment for me was the inner voice that was saying just enjoy life. Mem is for the flow, purification, womb, unstuck. Part of this deals with our emotions. We have to be real with what we are feeling, if we can't we remain stuck.

It's through our emotional body that we discover our most valuable treasures, our jewels of love, life, and light. It's no wonder that we choke ourselves to death with greed and always having to obtain more, it keeps us from looking within and realize what we already have.

As long as we can deny that we are abundant then we can play the game of getting more. As long as we can deny truth we can always assure ourselves the hunt for truth. But all things are with each and every one of us. No one is more special, it's just the story/drama you desire in this life to play out.

Will there come a time that I will accept my story and move on from my drama? I sure hope so! Because it will be then that I will become liberated. Not searching for the next technology or technique, I am the technique. I won't be searching for the next person to throw all my money to in hopes of the promise that I will become liberated. As long as I seek these things I'm saying that these things are impossible for me.

There is nothing wrong with reading a book, taking a class, or offering up union in a joint experience of enlightenment. I'm not saying there is anything wrong or right with the experience. What I am saying is that when we become liberated to the story that we have put around the experience, then we are liberated.

I play at many parts, a massage therapist, an author, a lover, a mother, etc., etc., it's only when I become attached to what I "think" I should GET out of playing those roles that bring me great, great, great suffering. If I think I'm suppose to be the best darn mom in the world then I am going to find very quickly that I'm judging myself against other people and I lose at being the best mom. Why? Because now that best mom is outside of me instead of inside where she belongs.

I love my children sooooo much. I used to stay up at night thinking of ways to entertain them, be with them, and have fun with them. But I remember that I did this because I felt less of being a mother, that I wasn't doing what everyone else was doing, or that I needed to provide for my children like everyone else was providing for their kids. These thoughts of not being good enough disconnected me from my children on a very personal level. People used to say that I was such a good mom, but I didn't believe them because I felt like I was living someone elses life. I didn't know how to be a mom. Why? Because when I was myself and did what I loved I was told it was wrong or that I needed to be embarrassed of myself.

The day those words came crashing down on me was the day that I left Velvete in the hole of darkness, never to be seen again.

Belief statement: There are days that I feel lost and confused of the journey I'm on and this feels frustrating and sad. I don't how much longer this is going to take. I gain frustration and aggravation while losing time, money and focus.

Spirit Statement: Now I feel confident and focused of the journey into feelings of peace and joy. I know now is all there is in this awareness of peace and joy while now flowing with focus.

Enjoy,
Velvete