Yud, Yud Better Do It!!!!!

Yud is a Hebrew letter that request us to be settled, even in the midst of change. I could feel a change coming but knew not what or when it would take place. Last week unfolded and I found deep peace and reverence within it. Then this week appeared and again I was asked to look within. A change was occurring and my inner state of being was now shifting beyond the world of illusions.

Yesterday I was working with clients and felt so present, so clear, and so profound. The peace within me was reflected within everything that took place for me and around me. My clients were feeling the love! And here is what I got from my clients:

"God is guiding me through the depths of my soul as I sew together the pieces. I am never too old to have God in my life. Everything is designed by God for the good of all. For this I give thanks.

After taking a moment and reflecting on what my clients were offering me as the God they were I realized that God was the one providing for me. And that the resistant I was feeling last week was the resistance of letting God be God. Then this gentle, loving voice said, "Velvete, it is not your clients that pay you but I."

When I heard these words I knew exactly what He meant. He was letting me know that all I needed to do was to show up for the work and that all my "needs" would be taken care of. With this He helped me to realize that everything I needed at that very moment was being met. I understood at that very moment that I have no needs unless I am projecting myself beyond reality, beyond time. Whether it be a simple word of encouragement or a process to awaken that was not my call, nor anyone elses to make. As a servant of God we are inspired to do exactly what is asked of us. When we resist this our life feels like it's on hold.

Shortly after I made a decision to make some changes on my website and within the way work would be handled I received an email from business friend. Reading the email brought such a blessing to me I cried. I could see within the letter a note from God. God was letting me know that I was falling into a pattern that I had been in over and over and over again.

So I responded to the email and as soon as I did, and it was sent I received a call. My car had to put into the shop last night because the engine light came on yesterday morning. The man proceeded to tell me what sounded like blah, blah, blah and then it hit me, another message, another clue. So then I took paper and pen and went to work and was clear with my questions and clear on his answer to me. It is simply amazing and the message for me was this, "I had allowed outside influences to bring me to a state of isolation." This isolation doesn't mean we lock ourselves in our rooms, but the isolation here was how I shut God out. I allowed it to be through others, instead of seeing others as myself talking to myself.

And how many spiritual people teach that lesson but never apply it within their own lives? Boy or boy!!!! They still worry about money, clients, telling people how to act and be, proclaiming they have the answers, while at the same time avoiding the lessons they teach. And if you feel guilty for cutting yourself off from such a person then you've just made that person real in your head. So no longer are they a part of you but now they are you outside of yourself. We keep people alive in the identity or the roles they play in our lives by feelings such as guilt, anger, resentment, poverty and the list goes on. When we hold them in our heart with LOVE, their identity dissolves that we were attached to.

But it gets better. So after a phone call with one of my sons who was having some difficulty I decided to rest and draw a card to see how this was all playing out at this very moment in my life. I drew Yud and realized that I was being thrust into God's Plan and He was ready for me.

LOL, and this is what is funny. I laughed out loud and said, "God, I'm ready to do what you need me to do and I think that will be involved with me making contact with more people." Suddenly the phone rang. When I answered the young lady was like a little angle. She said that she was with a doctors office that was looking for a massage therapist and that they knew I was in the area. She continued to tell me that this doctor would work with my current schedule and would do whatever was necessary to make it happen for both of us.

I proceeded to tell her that it was interesting that she called because I just had the thought that I was ready to branch out a bit. Of course I wasn't going to share with her what I just said to God, but we can see how quickly this can manifest when we are willing to be God's Will. They are just the next town over and it would be a wonderful opportunity to share love. But it's not up to me what I share, it will by being the vessel ONLY that will allow me peace.

I feel confident that we will make it work and that it will be the best for everyone involved. Of course my ego wants to say but you won't have all this free time any more, you won't be able to take your own clients, you won't, you won't, you won't. LOL...I had to laugh because all of the things the ego was bringing to my mind were just moments to remember just how blessed we all are. I know without a doubt that this business relationship will grow leaps and bounds.

You see, even if I won the lottery tomorrow, which I've already won today, I would still work for this doctors office and for my office. It's not about the time I have to myself, but the real connections I make with myself. The only way I'm going to learn and grow is by seeing my reflections and owning them.

God opens doors for us when we knock. I've been banging the hell out of my door. But God couldn't open it because I was banging and slamming the door in His face all at the same time. "Let me in! Don't come in!" LOL, it's funny what we do to ourselves.

So how are you knocking at the door but not welcoming Him all at the same time?

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