My ME!

We become more humbled when we realize there is no future and there's no time. The stories we identify with and keep telling ourselves that create the time of our mind; the suffering coming from what you don't want in that moment or would like to see different, rather than holding that moment in love.

I violated myself by believing that someone else/I needed help. What I mean by this is that any time we see the confusion in another really means that we see the confusion within our self. There truly is no one else out there. To become purer and more love and light means that we hold that light of love and only ask if the person needs our help.

Everyone is a mirror for us to be able to see our shadow. How else are we going to recognize what we are doing to ourselves otherwise? Tonight I drew the card YOD, which means "Know Thy Self". What are we being asked to know of ourselves? The card also ask, "Can you be the change you wish others would learn?" Wow, mirror, mirror on the wall who's the fairest of the land? We have to realize that we are the land and that by looking within we find the fairest of all.

It is by knowing that there is only now. And that any and all suffering comes from what you believe to be true. I was tested today when my ego kept saying that I was being pushy and pushing people away from me. So I sat and began with my father first and began to understand the concept that was continually playing out in my life. The things I disliked or saw about my dad were not very much alive in me. Why? My father didn't raise me, so how can this be? Well, what if all things within our mind create the people around us? What concept do we have about our self that we don't want to own that keeps putting it into other people? Everyone is different, and even when it's the same concept it will take on a different role. I would say that I am not pushy but caring. Well, if I refuse to see that I am pushy then I'm going to have to have pushy people all around me. Just like being anything else! If you see people as liars, what is it that you are lying about that you wish not to own up or take responsibility for?

No matter what happens in our life it's good. God is good. When I have surrendered to what is rather than what I thought would be better I found peace. I have had so many things take place in my life that has tested this many, many times. Today was a direct reflection of holding gratitude for what is. There is only one Creator, and to give thanks for what is without fear, without resentment, and without bitterness we are embraced with more love and more light.