Who's on First?

Have you ever had a conversation with someone where they are dramatizing and saying what they are feeling and think only to turn to you to say, "Well what's your opinion on this?" Why does my opinion even matter? Why do you need to know what I think about what you think?


We always hold a soup night once a month. We invite people for fellowship and just to get together and talk. This time we had some new people and new experiences. You could tell that the group was being divinely guided. So we had a particular person that opened up the floor in what he believed to be true and asked me what did I think about all that. I politely said to him that his beliefs were his beliefs and I really didn't think anything about it, that would be judging him on the spot and the situation, which I knew nothing about. So then he proceeded to ask me about what did I think about the government, I shared with him I'm pretty neutral about it. Of course this gentleman was trying to find a button and you could tell in his voice he was pretty excited about digging around for something.

So as I sat back and witnessed what was occurring with this man I realized I had been in those very same shoes called judgment. By golly I thought I was so right in my deep baptist religion one time I damn everyone to hell. Only to be brought down to my knees by God. I was touched in such a way that telling anyone they are going to hell was only condemning myself. I understood and experienced just how connected we all truly are.

As we continued with our conversations a dear man, who is full of love and light began to ask questions. Ones about how he could stop his suffering. The other man believed he didn't suffer because he was walking with God, however, he was seeing other people suffer and was clear to point that out for other folks. I just let him project while staying focused with this angel now seeking divine assistance.

I'm going to pause right here with our story because I think the point of suffering is a good one. The first man believed he was not suffering only because he was experiencing good health and didn't have anything wrong with him, so he was being rewarded by God for doing the right thing. His wife that was experience physical problems was doing the wrong thing and was now being punished by God.

Now, this man could only see what he wanted and believed with all of his heart that he was living the life of God because he wasn't suffering, only to learn that he suffers in other ways. But my point here is we are all living God's Will, whether you are sick or well. It is written, it is what it should be, and it is done, so mote it be. So can we, through judgment, that this person or that person is better in God's eyes because of the amount of suffering? Some feel that once you've worked on all your karma that you no longer experience pain and suffering, but what about those that come to this world to bring peace and enlightenment through these exact experiences. It's not for us to say who is doing God's Will more than another because we are all doing it. Just like we're suppose to be doing it.

So getting back to how this man was suffering. He denied that he was suffering yet his life was not harmonious and he desired better relationships, different relationships, and more fruitful relationships. When asked about these things he was quick to not respond to them. He couldn't because he was in the middle of his own suffering. He actually built it up in his mind that someone didn't want to talk to him ever, just because they said, "Let's give this some time." Giving it some time does not imply a person doesn't want to speak to you forever. And if you're not sure what it means then call the person up and ask them, "Would you be willing to share with me what that means to you, and what does that look like?"

The reality of it is this, if we asked those questions then we have to be ready, willing and able to take full responsibility for the answer. So as long as we're not clear we can always say it's someone else's fault. This helps both people to be clear in the relationship. When we become clear we are better communicators with Source, Love, God.

During one of the conversations as I was sharing a story about God instructing me the first man (who's not suffering) asked me how did I know it was God. When I gave him my answer he continued to ask so you believe you can talk to God. Well at that moment everyone jumped in and I had to go to the bathroom, so I can't comment on what took place. But I will say this, this is a man that believed that a computer program was the way God was talking to him. HUM! The reality is God communicates to all of us each and everyday. When we block or resist this communication then we suffer. Plane and simple. He communicates through language, symbols and more. However, it is always how this information is going to be used that sets the director in place. Is that director God or Ego? Either way, you'll learn from the experience, so be it.

I enjoyed myself yesterday. I thought we were having soup, bread and dessert and was looking forward to catching up with everyone. I had no agenda. However, the man (not suffering) couldn't wait to meet me. He could wait to talk to me. Why? Because he had an agenda.

There was an instructor at our Lodge one night that came to me and said, "I can't wait to teach this class and prove them all wrong." I asked her what did she mean by being wrong and she proceeded to tell me that she had information that would prove that the Chakras were not psychic centers.

AGENDA. When we have agendas we are out of sync, you can hear it in their voice, see it in their eyes, and see it in their hearts. Their eyes are wide like they are lost, the voices shake with anger or fear, and their hearts are in their throats pounding away. I know, I've been one of these people.

Now, I know there is only one. With this being said, I understand how I've projected having my little agendas. I feel that I needed to have them reflected so that I could see I was that way. Now, I have the ability to help someone walk through the fire if they so choose, like the man that wanted to end his suffering. I can not help anyone through the fire if I've not been there myself. How can we even begin to describe what something feels like, taste like, sounds like, or smells like until we've experienced for US first. Everything else is here say. Compassion brings us to our knees of realization that suffering ends within the mind. That it is truly our lies and stories that we continue to hold in place that brings suffering. It's not just think it and it's so. It's more of seeing what is real. How can you see what is real when you're not clear about the illusion? Compassion is just a gentle guidance into the light of realization. It's not a push or a shove but a gentle guidance in walking side by side through the Valley of Death.

Can I say that this man has not experienced the wall of fire and be able to share the true experience? NOPE, it's not for me to know why he's playing the role for others in their lives. I love him for who he is and I have no agenda to change him, for it's not my choice, right or desire to change him. To seek change in an individual implies judgment. It is only the person that seeks change. And if there is something that I would ever feel needs to change would mean I need to work within myself first.

This weekend was a mix of how illusions love to dramatize the story, how people truly want to end their suffering, and how others feel others suffer but not them, and how hell is going to be real in the minds of folks that still need to know they are RIGHT. You can be right, I don't care. Because in the end there is only God. I also witnessed love, divine love. And how grateful others are in the realization that God does love them, even when they are sick.

Belief statement: I understand that God lives within us all and this feels joyful because I know my brothers and sisters are me. I gain awareness while losing distractions.

Spirit Statement: I know God is all and joyful my brothers and sisters are within me with awareness and focus.