Day 232 of 400 "Thy Will Be Done"

I must be a big secret to myself today for I'm sitting here at the computer and just thinking, "I don't know what to write about. My mind is completely blank. Where do I begin?" I realized that when I woke up this morning that I woke up in such a way that left me a little unbalanced. It was almost as if I was existing in two worlds at one time. This can be a little unsettling but I knew I was safe.

I don't feel that I'm out of control because my mind is empty either. I feel more at one, and at peace with all that is. For some reason I thought about an old friend when we were to go to the movies together.

The story is I was taking my father-in-law to the doctors and I was missing a lot of work at that time. But I had made arrangements to meet up with a friend and go to the movie that night. While at the doctors office I had this feeling that she wasn't going to be there and then I thought about how I didn't have any money anyway to do what I had already agreed to do. So I got my pad and pen out and started writing it all down, for symbols. And then I released it saying that it was going to be exactly the way it needed to be for God. As soon as I did that my father-in-law handed me a $100 bill and said it was for the time I was taking to do this for him. He said he appreciated that I was giving up my business for him and that he wanted me to have this. I was very appreciative but began to see something much deeper in the workings.

As I was to meet my friend for the movie and drop off my father-in-law my friend wasn't there. I remembered what I had been working on in the doctors office and released it and knew that all was well and it was going to be the way it was suppose to be. Well, suddenly my friend is there and we had to hurry to the movie. However, she drives like a snail, so I thought we were still going to be late. I found myself repeating over and over again, "It's already the way it's suppose to be."

We make the movie on time and then we go to dinner. While we are there I am sharing my whole experience with her. She told me that she was late because she went by her mom's house and got into a fight with her, that she almost didn't come out at all. When I told her it was already written and that "Thy Will" was done, she asked with fearful eyes, "Well Velvete, where is my will in all of this?" Because what I hear you saying is I have no choice. What I hear you saying is that your will was more important than my will.

Now I never told her it was my will be done, I specifically told her that it was God's will that would be done. It wasn't long after that that we went our separate ways. I realized some time later that many of the people in the town had come to see me as powerful and someone to avoid. However, I always say myself as the opposite. I always say myself not knowing, not strong, and not aligned to God's will. But how much more can we be aligned to God's will than listening to that inner voice that lets us know where we are and where we need to be.

I processed this myself last night and realized that it was out of greed and control that anytime I wished for my will to be done. Why? Because what I was saying is I want this or that because I feel God is not supplying me with my needs. I was just like all the other folks that believed I was in "control" of my destiny. But all of my life has been proving to me that I am not in control. And that when I sit back and relax and enjoy the experience I am open for more experiences, more alignments, and more intuition.

I have found that when I release any idea of what is suppose to happen rather than what is already been that I become more in harmony and in tune with my surroundings. There is a big illusion out there right now and that illusion is this, that it's still happening. It's not! At least not for me anyway, it's already written, and if it's already written then why would I choose to fight it.

And it's very interesting to me how so many religious people say, "Oh, but God's will is done", but as soon as something doesn't feel good to them anymore it's, "Well they went against God's Will". Really? I have said it before and I'll say it again, sometimes out of the darkest moments in our lives is when we find the most enlightenment.

So if you find like so many folks that believe that intentions work then why don't they "ALL" the time. As I stated in my book, Intentions don't work. Why? Because you are not aware of your alignment to the willingness to release. Release what? CONTROL. We are not in control no more than we could make the world spin in a different direction.

Some people would see me closing my store as a failure, but truly I tell you this was God's plan not mine. So if God wants to fail at something then so be it. Will I be more blessed then another, of course not. The only value that people need to feel is of their own. What this means is this, if you see me as one thing you are actually seeing and judging yourself as that.

Now let's look at "Thy will be done." It's not putting into the future as, "Oh thy (yours) will be done when I get all the information, tools, knowledge or whatever I need". This statement of having simply implies fear of the unknown. Who wants to know everything? The lower/ego mind.

As I see these letters what I see is it will be done. Meaning that it's done. It's not saying it might be done, it's saying will be done. When my mother tells me this will be done, that means it will be done.

All we have to do is simply listen. If we say I'm in control, what are we really in control of? If we say that we have the ability to choose, what are we choosing? If we say, "I can create my reality", then are you? As I've said before those that go around saying, "You know you create your reality", hurt people by not giving them a tool.

In "Higher Mind, Lower Mind" we gave people that ability to see the illusion through their belief statements and then show them that what was really going on was the opposite. This is to help people to align that you are okay, that no matter what is going on in your life just experience it.

Some people have refused to read it because it specifically says intentions do not work, and they don't want to hear that. Some people read it and see it as a quick fix of their illusion by feeling they are in control of their own destiny, and some people read it and realize what was intended from the Higher Mind, that we are all one, that life is good and that words are powerful in helping the awakening.

Those that have become dedicated students of HMLM have seen the transformations in their lives with freedom and ease. They have been able to leave jobs and move through the space that is created for them to be in at that moment. Students of HMLM understand that all is what it should be.

However, we were told that this book would do what it needed to for the general public. So whether you take it one way or another it's God's Will working through it, not ours and not yours.

So stop beating yourself up for not having this or that and be thankful for what you do have. Stop telling yourself you aren't good enough and live like you are. Stop trying to be someone you are not and just be yourself. If that is a lonely SOB then live it with all of your being. Take up your rod and staff and claim that you are an SOB.

I've lived 15 years here in this town and I've been called everything under the sun. I don't live my life for them and this is what makes them scared. I don't live my life for me and this is even more scary to them. They are witnessing God in action. However, when they deny me they deny God. So be it....it is written.

Belief Statement: You can laugh at your beliefs all you want but they still will make you feel empty and shallow. Hear the words that are written within your statements and you will gain awareness and lose understanding.

Spirit Statement: I laugh with reality for I am full and deep within the listening of the words created within my reality with awareness and understanding.

Spirit moved me to do that Belief Statement above and it seems so true, that we lose understanding when we get caught up in the process.

So do you feel that I am better than you because I have this or that? Then you are missing the point. Do you hate me because you feel that I am ignorant in allowing God to be within all of my life? Do you cling to me because you feel that in doing so that you will be rewarded by the gifts that are bestowed to so many but refuse it. The pain in suffering that you seek is what will set you free. Seek it out and embrace it as if it's your best friend. Allow it to rise in your being with all of your heart. There you will find the Heart of God.