Day 220 of 400 "Letting Go"

As we move through the veils of illusion we begin to see ourselves as someone unrecognizable, while seeing ourselves more truthfully all at the same time. When we meet this person that we thought we were and address it head on we reclaim our power in being. This "meeting of the minds" so-to-speak is more than not knowing what to do, but rather it's making you doubt what you are becoming.

This mind behind the illusion makes us feel that we can't live without what we know, that our intentions are the driving force behind our control. And in reality it's the driving force of pushing us out of control. It makes us feel like there is more to the illusion by giving us a win or a lose.

During a transformational period the ego can say see you did it, I did a good job, everyone loves me, I'm so worthy of everyones love and desires. But the opposite can also happen to us by saying, you are a failure, you don't know who you are, and you can't tell between me and God. By facing this illusion we move into the direct path of transformation by taking the middle ground. The part of us that is always connected to truth and love.

I know what I am speaking of here because I, too, am going through the transformation. I have learned what was necessary at the time to be able to move beyond a level of awareness that no longer is a vibration that I can align to. Does being at one level entitle me a direct path to the knowing? Of course not! It just means I understand there is something that is changing and I need to wake up and embrace that new level. Ego was a kicken and screaming with this one. It made me feel that I couldn't live without my shop, live without my customers, live without knowing what next. The drama, oh the drama. And does this cause pain and suffering in my body? Yes indeed. But my strength is within this suffering.

I release the health food store for it no longer serves me in my awakening and liberation. It has become a source of pain and suffering which means I am no longer aligned to self. Has it been good to me? Yes it has, very good. But now that I have transformed it is no longer needed.

There are other people involved in this relationship but the truth is that ego is so good at using them to keep me in my prison of this illusion. Does this mean I'm uncaring? Of course not. But what it does mean is I allow them to learn the lessons and the agreements that they have with their own souls. It's not up to me to heal anyone, they must be ready, willing and able to do this for themselves. Why am I using my time, money and energy in supplying people jobs, training, and the illusion of healing when they themselves refuse to do so. When you have someone that is unwilling to do what is necessary to wake up it is not our place to throw water on them and jerk them from their dream because this will make them angry. But rather we are here to be the light that gently awakens them from their sleep, so they can easily make the transition to the waking state.

It does not matter to me what you think for it is not up to you where I am on my path. It does not matter to me what you will be with or without through my releases, again this is up to you. It does not matter to me how you decide to awaken, for I know you are already there. The store has been my illusion of health, wellness, and restoring balance.....there is more....and I'm ready for the more.

My level of awareness allows me not to focus on the next herb or supplement that will heal my ill like a RX, but rather to look within and to care for this body that will assist me within the transformation. That is why YOGA, meditation and massage are going to be so important in this next level of awareness.

For those of you that are local and can shop we are closing down the health food all together. We will only be providing services in our current location and we will continue to do the HCG online. We will be selling everything at 75% off starting Monday, August the 2nd. We will have this sale for one week and then we will be closed to start our remodeling process.

We will also be closed while I'm in school for Yoga for I have come to realize that I need a complete release and cleanse of attachments before proceeding into this next level of awareness. We will not be providing services except for Higher Mind, Lower Mind workshops and meditations.

Belief Statement: I thought I knew who I was with the success of the store but now I'm feeling confused and lost. I think I've invested too much attention to what is not rather than what is. I've gained awareness while losing focus.

Spirit Statement: I know I am success in awareness and focus. I know I am abundant in awareness and focus.