Day 150 of 400, "Children"

It was only days after providing the information to you about "awareness" that a flood gate of information for my own awareness took place. I know that it's been seven days since my last post, and believe me I had the intention on updating it daily, even while on the road. However, Spirit/Source/God had a different agenda for me. And the information was coming to me so quickly it seemed like it took me hours to process it all.

This past weekend I drove to KS with my husband and best friend to celebrate the dedication of our granddaughters into the church. Immediately things started happening for me that made me sit back and go within to reflect. I had taken my N.D. lessons to study, however, when I went to study my book for the course was missing. Everything else was there but this book. So I put it away and heard my husband say, "Well, that just means you weren't meant to do that right now." He was right and I knew it. So I picked up my guitar and started playing around a bit and found this beautiful tune. I got excited and called my daughter right there in the car to hear it. She loved it and I asked her if I could play it while she read her poem for the dedication. It was a hit! Well at least for my daughter and I at that moment in time.

When we arrive at my daughters we take the littlest one to the park to meet up with the 6 year old where her school was having a play day. There are children every where. And of course we got a great big greet from our granddaughter. But then something started happening. The little one got sick so I took her into the grass to help her to feel better and suddenly we had a little circle of children all around me. I could feel the childrens love but I also had something happening within me as well. I could feel it in my heart. I felt that these children needed something, and maybe me too, that they had not been receiving for a very long time.

Then Sunday came and I am getting ready to perform my first song, "God is Love". But before I do the preacher tells everyone to look past the words, look past the symbology and only see the person singing the song. Well, what the heck do you think that did to me? I felt like I was just raped in front of the church. I wrote that song the night that my granddaughter was born and only had the last verse to it a month ago. I wanted my granddaughter beside me so she would know that this was for her....but I allowed another individual to knock me out of my flow. I allowed another individual to knock me out of alignment with Source/God.

All through that service all I heard was how if we spare the rod we spoil the child. How children are born of sin and that without us bringing them up in a Christian atmosphere that they would be doomed for eternal hell. WHAT? Are you kidding me? Here was a time that the children should have been hearing the message of love and light and they were being shown fear and darkness.

I asked for guidance on this to help heal and resolve it. And as you all know I get my answers pretty quick. On the way to work there is a mommy chicken with 2 little babies off to the side of the road, but suddenly the momma chicken runs right under my car. I am so upset that the chicken did that and didn't protect her young. I watched in the mirror and see her flopping to the ditch. Still upset I'm worried now about the babies. I just want the babies to be okay. Later my assistant comes in and tells me about a story done on ABC about "What would you do?" and proceeds to tell me this story about children and parents yelling and dropping their kids off at the curb to leave them there stranded. The whole time she is talking to me about this I'm thinking about those stupid chickens. LOL....and not LOL all at the same time.

Then later that afternoon I am having lunch with my husband, which was already pretty hectic... When we get there there is a child looking for her daddy. He is working were we are eating so I pick her up, show her he is working and put her back in the play room he has for her. After about 10 minutes I hear her screaming and crying. At first I just sit there then my husband, knowing the stress I am feeling of the child's cry, tells me to go see about her. When I do check on her she is upset over a video game, but she's only 3. So I pick her up and ask her if she would like to come sit with me. She welcomed this idea with open arms. We sat at my table holding, stroking and talking to one another while waiting on our food that seemed to be taking an extra long time. Now....I was at that eatery before noon but did not leave until after 1pm. Normally we are in and out within 30 minutes. But not today. There was a reason.

So Tuesday night we have to run into another town to pick up supplies and decided to go out to eat. While sitting there again I was distracted by children. I heard them laughing, playing, cutting up and having a good time....but the parents were stern, and looking at the children as if they were a big inconvience. The mother only interested in her cell phone is pointing her finger at her youngest son to shut his mouth. Her youngest daugher has begun to sit up on her knees to get a better drink and to help herself to more soda (just what they need, right?) and the mother starts spanking this child on the bottom as if the child has just done something bad, wrong, or horrible.

My heart began to ache, tears started coming to my eyes. I knew that if I kept my focus here that I would have cried out loud so I diverted my attention to my husband who was watching everything patiently. But I was later able to observe more of what was going on at that table and realized that the parents were so disengaged and distracted by their contempt that they could not even interact with the children in a positive way. A child sneezed and the dad yelled, "Look at that, just look at that....thanks a lot". Both of these parents were obese and seemed to care more about feeding themselves then their own children. I am not saying this as a judgement but rather an awareness. This awareness has allowed me to see that my distractions on this physical plane have kept me from my inner child.

As we are walking out there is a little old lady who could barely walk and I could see the child within her. My heart stopped. We are all children! Those parents at that table are only children that don't know how to play with their toys they asked for. They asked for those children, and they had lots of them too, but now they didn't know what to do with them. Again, I wanted to cry and here's why.

We are all children and it's through this child like essence that brings us to our new heaven. That it is through the eyes of children that see everything as God that we are able to enter into this vibration and frequency of love. It's through the heart of a child that is so pure and so connected so strongly to Source that we find our way home.

Children are here to help guide us along our path to enlightment. Children are here to remind us that God is love and light. That through this love and light we are able to find ourselves again...the child within. We are not meant to feed off of the childs love and acceptance, but rather only allow it to show us the way. There are so many people that feed off of pets and children simply because they have a direct line to Source and the individual knows this subconsciously. And that is when it hit me.....my inner child was also being used by others that could not recognize or appreciate their own light. Either they didn't know how or weren't physically able to due to their own illness and dis-ease.

As I am finishing this post; mind you I am not open for business yet, however there is a little old lady that comes through the door wanting soap. (LOL...you got to laugh at how quickly we get our messages). So I go ahead and ring her up and she needs to use my bathroom. (Again Cleansing) But before she leaves she shares with me she wants a computer and looks at all that I have up here. Then she proceeds to share with me the story of her husbands death. She said she was upset that the Hospice nurse said to her over his head, "Honey, he won't last till noon." There was no talking to this lady about the spirit, she was set in her mind how it was and no other way. After releasing the "need" to tell her anything I just absorb the event.

Shortly after she leaves another lady comes in and is talking about her problems and also needs the bathroom, it was then I realize that I am getting my signs. I realize that people come into the store and are cleansing automatically because of the vibration and their new awareness. And that by my awareness of what was happening to my inner child that I had cleansed and was continuing to cleanse the energies that no longer served me. The decision that I had made regarding business, workers, education, children, friends....everything was on target.

The bottom line is simply this, there are times when our children need to be on their own to allow them to grow and learn from their own experiences, and these experiences begin to shape them as adults. When we rush in to rescue them from every situation we are not allowing them to learn. There is nothing wrong with supporting them with understanding and a shoulder to express themselves. This support is never to turn into a crutch. It is never meant for us to totally take on another persons reason for being here. It also prevents us to deal with what we need to experience and process in life.

There are so many people that look to see what is wrong with another person just so that they don't have to look at what they have created to deal with. In our book this is called tending your neighbors garden when you should be tending your own.

It became very apparent to me that I had allowed others needs, wants and desires to over-ride my growth. I did this as a distraction to myself so that I would not have to face my inner child, my own lack of confidence, and my own lack of understanding. All of which was pulling me down into the lower mind/below the line.

Recognizing this is more than half the battle, it's the majority of the battle. If we can learn to release and allow people their own creation then we lift ourselves to a higher level of awareness and understanding through and with compassion.

I realize that I am freeing myself of people that feel that they have needed me to keep them alive, to keep them healthy and to keep them sane....but now is the time for me to move forward with the direction I came into the world to be...of the light...not the light but of it.

Each and everyone of us is the light but when we feel that we are the only light our responsibilities become heavy in the load of the weight of the world. We lift no one by having this mentality or sense of responsibility. It is through choice that each person using what they are aware of to get through it. If they dont' have all the answers that's okay, they'll learn along the way. There is nothing set in stone.

When children play they are only worried about what they are playing with at that time. They aren't looking for someone to heal, safe or rescue them. They are in the moment, pure moment.

Let's all be more child like to open the heavens within our hearts and become aware of our love and light. Using our fears and anger as a means to know that we want something different in our lives and doing something about it rather than being depressed about what we don't have.

Remember that the opposite of love is fear and the opposite of anger is joy. We can feel all of these things when we feel that someone that we love is getting ready to leave us behind. But no one is left behind. All children are found! All children are loved equally.

Belief Statement: I step into this world not knowing what to do and this makes me feel fearful and dis-eased. I don't understand people at times or myself but I do gain awareness while losing time.

Spirit Statement: I am in this world knowing love and balance. I know myself and others with awareness now.

Enjoy!
Love, V