This is one letter that reminds us how easy tit for tat really is. It's the combination of both male and female energies seeking and desiring balance from within. It's the womb but also the rod or staff. It's that part of us that desires giving and receiving. To get out of balance all one has to do is look at the motive behind the giving or receiving.
If we are giving out of thinking we are better than someone else then we are giving and will be receiving more lack in our lives as well as others. When we receive out of expectations because I deserve it, or I should have it just because I'm this or that then we are denying our true gift of abundance.
Remember the story in the Bible of the man that has 2 sons and he gives them both their inheritance? One son stays home and does everything that is right, the other son goes out and blows it all. When that sons comes back home the father welcomes him and puts him in his finest garments. The son that did what he thought was right and honorable was very upset at this.
We can use this story to illustrate how life is much like this. When we live life with just the joy of being all that we can be and experiencing all that we can experience, then our riches are deep. But if we hold on to what we think we are, or think how we should act in order to receive more, then we block our abundance.
As I meditated this morning I thought about this very thing. What attitude am I still holding on to that I need to let go in order to be all that I am or could be. The answer didn't take very long because I was taken to an event this weekend.
This event was having lunch with a friend. It felt so good to be out having lunch with a friend and everything seemed so perfect. It was interesting how I was able to be so present with the enjoyment of my food without my mind wandering around in what I needed to say, or a point to prove, or any kind of agenda. Just being present in the experience of it all.
But while we were eating my friend started asking questions and the information came from within me. I know the difference now when the little "i" speaks and when the big "I" speaks. But one of my answers must not have been what the friend wanted to hear because all of a sudden his head started shaking that little shake, and eyes went wild, and lips started to curl. I sat witnessing this and immediately God asked, "Do you know who that is?" I asked Him, Who? He said that is the ego striving to make itself known. The information we have just given goes against all this person little "i"s IDEAS. As the friend continued to talk, God continued to talk to me. God asked me am I ready to let go of my voice and join with His Voice. Of course the answer was yes right there on the spot. It was then my heart melted.
My heart melted because I could see that the little pieces of the "i"s struggle to make sense of what they created. We all have loved what we created so much that we are unwilling to listen to others when it goes against our ideas, we stop listening when someone starts telling us something that shifts our awareness to a degree of uncertainty, we stop listening when we feel that we are right.
Now let's get this straight right now, there is a difference in being aligned and ignoring because of your own mind. You see when we are aware of the information we can feel it within our own body in how it makes us feel. When we are in our mind, we are only fighting with current information that we have and go based solely on that without looking at how the information is making the person feeling. Rather it's like if the information doesn't compute they can't look at it, because to truly put that idea down they would have to allow God in so they could feel the information.
We all know when we are aligned to something or not. We get this feeling in the pit of our stomach. Tet is letting us know that this is how we communicate by keeping this in balance. Tet is reminding us to have the ability to receive and give and to be aware of what and where that energy is coming from. If it is coming from your mind it's distorted, if it's coming from your heart then clarity will come.
So as I sat there watching this friends head bob, eyes twitch and lips curl I found myself in aw. I saw my little 'i' again and it wanted a response from me. But I sat there with a tender heart and it filled full of love. Love for the part of me that was created for me so that I could see that I had overcome the need to push my little i on to anyone.
Tet is asking us what have you out grown that you need to get rid of in order to allow life to be present within and around you. I say today it is that ego voice that keeps me separated from truth, from love, from light, and companionship.
There are people out there that say, "Oh yea I get that the only relationship is with me. Yea, I get that I have to fix me first. Oh, yea I get that there is no one else out there." But then all you have to do is test this and you will see the truth of what they really think. You see I don't believe God test us, but rather that little ego part of us that says, "Hey, I'll prove it to you God that I'm well and know what I'm doing." And then God says, "Okay you can have that now." But then we are quick to discover that we really didn't mean it, we really weren't ready for all of THAT stuff yet, and that we go back into hiding.
Tet understands we are vulnerable when we shed that part of us that we have outgrown. It understands that protection is necessary while the newness of us comes into being. But there comes a time that the mama robin pushes the baby bird out of the nest so he can learn to fly. To say, "you can do it baby and if you don't it's your own fault."
You see the mama bird knows there is nothing she can do if her baby doesn't fly. This is much like us and God, there's nothing He can do if we don't try. He knows that once we take the first leap that we'll fly high and beautifully.
Tet is number nine, a completion phase or number. What have you been done with but unwilling to let go of?
Belief Statement: Life is full of opportunities to shine and this feels exciting. I know I will learn to gain patience while losing greed.
Spirit Statement: I am life shining excited knowing now grace.
Enjoy today!
