While meditating on Aleph this morning all the dreams I'd had the night before came into my memory, all of which wanted to be remembered. They were all significant I am sure, but the one that the symbol of Aleph surrounded was the wedding dream.
In this dream I am getting dressed and ready to "be" married. Yep, I'm the one getting married. Now I have not had any wedding dreams since I was probably in my
30's and these dreams always brought about some kind of change in my life. They never really mean that your are getting ready to be married, but that you are marrying a part of you now. Of course this is always what I got from my dreams because I could never see the grooms face. It was always blank.
This time there was no groom, just me getting ready for the ceremony and then looking down at my shoes. I have some type of tan tennis shoe on, which I could never ware. But these shoes I kept saying, "Maybe the dress would hide them." And of course the dress did. The dress was beautiful, no sleeves and cut just right.
Then the dream moves to walking with my husband down this long path towards a school. Aren't we all in school right now? I loved it!
Aleph is asking us to look at what is important in our lives, while understanding that none of this is real to begin with. When we begin to see that none of it is real then why not focus our energy on things that do matter, rather than keeping ourselves trapped in what we can't change. The only thing you can change is were put your energy. If you want to keep your energy in the things that you don't have, then so be it.
So how does it feel to be the living Aleph? Freeing! Freeing because now I know that whatever I am being called to marry it won't matter if all the things match or look good, my brides dress will make it all perfectly divine.
You see? So what is it out there that's not really out there that you are so worried about? What is keeping you from marrying your complete self just because you don't think you're good enough or that you're too good.
Remember this my friends, we are all the same. When you begin to question whether anyone is deserving or that someone is more deserving then you are cutting your marriage short. But that's okay, because we have Beit tomorrow that will pull it all together.
Belief statement: When I wake up I feel overwhelmed with remembering all the things that I need to get done today. I gain an imbalance while losing focus and time.
Spirit Statement: I am awake in confidence knowing all things are done in balance with focus now.
It's as simple as that. All things will be done in balance. It's simple where I put my attention on that caused me to become out of balance in the first place. It's me thinking that I'm doing anything. Stop thinking that you are doing any other than learning. When we learn we watch, we listen, we feel, we smell, and we are quiet.
Enjoy!
V
