Who Am I?

Who am I when it rains? Who am I when it thunders? Who am I when the light turns on? Who am I when the alarm goes off? Who am I when the bathroom door clicks when trying to stay in bed? And who am I when I feel?

All of these are great questions because if you look at who you are at that moment you will see that you change. We change because of how we take that information of what is going on around us and process it as being us. We take it personal to some degree! We project onto our environment, situations, people, places, everything.

When it rains my beingness depends on what belief I will use to influence this "I am". If I am influencing it with a negative memory of some occurance when I was six years old, then the rain can be my enemy and I can hate the day all day long, now I am being anger, resentment, or gloom.

How can I "BE" calm when my external world is in such termoil? How can I "be" godlike, if someone is doing something to me to make me mad? And there we have the illusion, the victim consciousness that some other beingness is doing something to me now, rather than me being at peace within my own reality and the things I've decided to stare upon.

What are our senses telling us? Do we create those as well based on belief influences? Can we really be sick and enjoy peace at the same time? Well, I've done this and it feels beautiful. But there is still a judgment, beautiful. What made it beautiful to me may cause another the feeling of fear.

There is no one way to look at your beliefs, they are all personal programs based on your past and what you cling to. To truly free ourselves from the drama we must be willing to look at how we are thinking about things. It's not as simple as choosing to think something different. As we have learned with "Higher Mind, Lower Mind", it's rather what you aren't seeing or unwilling to see that is doing this.

What is real for one person may not be real for another. If we all agree that it was a pleasant trip then this means that we had a common judgment or belief on what we saw. Or that we just decided to agree that it was all good, without any real self projection on to it. We are just taking it for what everyone else desires. But underneath that decision that the trip was good was an unseen influence.

I have been up since 5:55 this morning. I know this means a change for me. I also know this means that the angels are close by, as they always are. But I also know this means that I will receive some form of liberation. I don't know when that will be, that of course is up to Source. But I am here as I should be doing exactly what I should be. But what is that?

I am a person learning to see my reality! I am a person that is learning to take it one step at a time in my own self realization that all that I see is consciousness witnessing consciousness. That the only real control I have is by the choices I make in making up my own mind. Why leave it to anyone else?

Now of course people are in the places that they are to assist others through those realizations. Sometimes we are too close to the situation to see it honestly and need guidance. But here's the deal!!!! What if someone ask you, "Well, how do you feel about that?", you then proceed to tell them and they only say, "Well, I don't think so."

Now, who's influencing whom? Who's reality or illusion are we now stepping into? Of course we can agree to do this and we do it all the time. We tell someone how we are feeling, thinking or doing and someone tells us we are not being honest. Hell!! We are being as honest as we can be with the limited perceptions that we own at that very moment in time. The person that feels they can rip that from you without giving you gentle guidance and understanding while you travel into your own darkness is only using you now to illuminate their own darkness.

The teacher that is telling you, as a student, that as you get clear I'm getting clear is no longer the objective teacher but the participating student in his own suffering. A teacher is full of compassion by completely allowing the student/client to receive what is necessary for the student/client. It is only afterwards that a teacher may reflect on what has occured when a button has been pushed.

So how do we guide? How do we teach? And how in the world do we wake up? Well the first mistake is believing that anyone "needs" guidance. It is only through the realization of the play that is at hand that we realize that there are no needs. But to believe there are still needs shows and proves to us that there is much work still to be done within our own mind. How do we teach? By "Being" still. By allowing the gentleness of our light to illuminate where no other light can touch. How do we wake up? We are awake! It's only our belief that we are still asleep that continues to create lack, need, want, ignorance, and all these businesses now in the business of waking you up. Get a freaking alarm clock, that will wake you up.

And there you have it "the alarm clock".....we all will one day just hear the other alarm and wake up and it will be as if we never went to sleep. We will go about our days and remember the dreams that once were. We will be pure consciousness aware of itself through the illusions of what never was. And this consciousness knows exactly what time to do this! The alarm is already set. As it says in the Bible, "There is a time and season for everything", this means our awakening too. But anytime that we take this too serious then we become attached to an outcome and anytime we become attached to an outcome it's like trying to go back to sleep to dream the same dream with a different ending.

Truly this wanting a different ending is the only reason for any suffering. It's what makes us attached to all that is. I want a different life. I don't want to be single. I don't want to be poor. I don't want to be rich. I don't want to work ever again in my life. These are all attachments of wanting something other than what already has been created.

We were watching "A Christmas Carol" and the ghost of Christmas past says to Scrooge he need not worry about being seen because they have no consciousness of them. The shadows have no consciousness of the light. The things that you think are your past are the bits of consciousness that has it's end already in sight. These are nothing more than the light of your beliefs now influencing who and what you think you are being.

I am a doctor, I am a teacher, I am a singer...whatever the case may be you are nothing but a mere token of the reflection of light that was and still is. The shadows of your wants and needs have clouded your perceptions. To truly see through the clouds one must make up their mind. Either go within and remain at peace with what is, or continue to look outside of yourself while continuing to alter your perception to go along with you belief.

If we choose to see everyone as weak and in need then we are truly still arriving at our own level of light. There is nothing wrong with assisting others! This is not what I am saying! When we do this with this with full consciousness of the light that they are instead of the lack of light that they are then the play is complete. The play is complete because now you are the witness of love.

So who am I when it rains? I am Love, I am Light, I am the Being behind the doing. I am what I am, the rain as I believe it to be.

Enjoy today's message and know that as we get ready to shift from 2010 to 2011 we are grand. We always were.

Belief Statement: How can we wake up when there is so much information out there. I feel confused and don't know what to believe anymore. I'm gaining confusion while losing hope.

Spirit Statement: I am awake and informed within awareness and know truth now in focus and knowing.

Enjoy!

Oh, if this is too confusing for, that's okay! I haven't completely lost my mind, YET! LOL