What Can I Say?

AHHHHHHH.....What can I say? I wake up this morning to the sound of rain again and a chill in the house. My bed feels to sweet and comfy but my body is saying, "Okay, I'm ready to be in the day." I completely surrender and allow my day to start. Even though there is a part of me that's really loving the sheets and comforter at that very moment.

I learned something very profound about myself last night while on a call. It came to my realization as I'm working a process that what I see in others as their weakness I have countered balanced, many times in my life the total opposite. I'll give you a pretend situation to explain. Say for instance you see someone that is lazy at work, that they never do their job and you are always having to be on top of what they do. To counter balance, and to give the situation contrast so it can be visible, then the opposite and the same are within you somewhere. So if you have a lazy person in your life and it's really getting to you, normally it's the OCD, ADD, ADHD or even the workaholic in you that's going to recognize this situation. But it is also the person inside of you that wishes for the same. I can't begin to tell you how many times I yelled at someone for being lazy and wondered why I couldn't just forget about the world like they do.

But last night was deep for me because I realized that it's not about them at all. The attachments that we make and continue to make on people to make them real beyond what they really are is what causes us pain and suffering. When we look at another person without being able to see them for the love, life, and light that they are then we are also not willing to see it within ourselves. We can't pretend to do this, because as soon as you do there will be someone in your face. They will greet you with all the things you don't even know about yourself. The things that you've hidden so deep within you you can't even feel them anymore. And the only way that you'll know that they are there is by how you feel.

Feeling for me has never been difficult for me. I came into this world feeling everything around me and being very sensitive to outside influences. Which really means I have some deep internal/eternal stuff going on. I used to think that people did it to me, but now I really, really, really get no one does anything to me. This is God's Will for me so that I can understand the gifts that await me as I awaken. I know the more I feel the more I awaken. This isn't to say that a person that can't feel isn't going to have this opportunity, we all have the same here.

Getting back to the process! So I am sitting there and feel what it's like to be too serious and then not serious at all. I realized at that moment that no matter who or what we think is happening to us there is always the opposite polarity working against that very thought or action. But once we realize that we aren't any of those things we come back to our center and there is no pulling or pushing, there is just complete relaxation and bliss. And as I'm going through this particular process I can see all the links unfold before my eyes of how that was "DONE" to me as a kid and how I "DID" that to myself.

You see, it's not about what someone did to me but what I did to myself. I could see all the pieces as if they were scattered all over the floor how I created that and then weaved it into every aspect of my life. And each time that I wanted validation of being wronged all I had to do was tie it into to my data bank system and say, "download please".

LOL,,,, this is too funny. Years ago I was doing some work and the information came to me that we receive uploads, never downloads. If you look above I used the word download to validate my belief. No wonder they said we only receive uploads. These are the things that get us out of our illusions and into what is real. This makes so much sense with Higher Mind, Lower Mind. When we dive into the lower worlds we are pushing down our thoughts to hold our illusions in place and holding back energy. When we move into the Higher Mind, we literally are shedding the illusions and moving into what is real, we are moving up. The energy here is so light and freeing.

People, I completely understand how hard it is to look at someone that you've hated for years and not want to give that up. You want validation and reason to continue to hate that person, even if that person is YOU! I think some times it's even hard when it's ourselves that we hate than it is when we project the hate. But it's real either way. So when doing a process stop thinking about it. Don't get in your head and talk yourself out of doing it, continue with it. Stay present.

And here's a clue for everyone. When you tune a person out because you don't want to hear what they have to say (I know, I've done it myself) then listen even more closely. The car guy that I wrote about last week was my greatest angel in giving me clues about myself. Who would have thought a mechanic would give us a message? Everyone can give us a message. But as soon as you start hearing blah, blah, blah, listen up and listen closing.....because it's only YOU doing the talking.

I felt free from my illusion last night and could see how I had used that against myself in so many things. I think that is one of the reasons the body is so happy to get up before the sun these days. It has more energy and more freedom to be joined with God's will. I realize now that all the times that I thought I wanted to stay in bed where just means and ways for me to avoid discovering parts of my hidden self.

This lack of energy manifest in many forms, so just because you don't lay in bed in the mornings doesn't mean you're free. It manifest in not getting out, not cleaning the house, not doing the laundry, not cooking for yourself, not picking up the phone and connecting with people, as well making your body feel sick and tired. It's the way we wake up, being uncomfortable. And if you say that you are comfortable but say, "I want"....then you aren't comfortable. I'm not going to explain that one you'll just have to figure that out for yourself. But I will say this, the ego mind loves to play games in making everything sound right, but you can't hide behind "right" words. We become the words themselves! And once you do you understand how they have played a key role in your development and awareness.

We have several new books that will be hitting the web soon and look forward to the sharing of the experience. Please check out our link above, www.highermindlowermind.com to stay posted.

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