As I woke up this morning from my dreams, and dreams I had let me tell you, I took a moment to thank God for the trees that seemed to umbrella our tent. I took a deep breath in and could smell the goodness of life growing all around me.
My dreams were very vivid and colorful last night, almost as if in a 3-D movie. I had one dream where a girl told me I had dishonored her blue and red. I was confused for sure because i asked when did I do that. It was then I heard the voice say, "There is no past, there is no girl." The dream quickly went to my son honoring us. He was all dressed in this Indian outfit of Orange, the hat he wore was like a Beret. It was beautiful. But he had so much love for me he just cried.
But what was the most interesting part of the night is when I was laying back down from a bathroom break around 5:30 this morning. I laid my head on the pillow and just started to drift off after saying the Lord's Prayer, I heard as if the person was right in the tent with us and she yelled, "Velvete, are you still out there?" Within the next moment I saw a flash of light within my mind, I could see the blue sky and I felt like I was no longer confined to time. The trip was proceeded with dreams to what I just spoke of above.
When I woke up this morning and laid there thinking about the voice I realized that I was asking myself did I still believe I was out there and then to have this confirmed by the dreams only within my mind. I drew a card this morning, which I do every morning, at least by noon and I drew the nurse card. Now what's interesting about this card is I also drew this card Friday after making a choice of reflection and meditation. The card says, "There is no one out there!" And it also ask me this, " Are you truer to commitments to others than to yourself?" The dream specifically spoke to me based on this card this morning.
What does it all mean? Well for me, and this is for me only, it's asking me if I'm still believing that I'm helping others in some way or am I helping myself. Now we all know when we help others we help ourselves, but I'm beginning to see that if we are doing it out of the belief that there is something wrong with them, or when we feel we are saving someone then we are missing our mark. This continually seems to be the story of my life. Right from birth I remember trying to save someone and willing to give up my own life in order for that other soul to live. The truth is there is no other.
Did I need to come to this mountain to discover this depth? Yes! For it is within the mountain of our own minds that we are freed. It's very symbolic is what is occurring within and around me. I look forward to the realizations and peace today. I know within me is my own realization, my own salvation, my own awareness of God.
May the day be full of love and light for that is all we are.
Belief Statement: I am love and feel peaceful because I know I am One while gaining speed in losing the illusion.
Spirit Statement: I AM Love and Peace. I know I AM One with sustainable reality.
Love,
Velvete PS I'm doing this with the sun hitting the screen so editting shall be done later. But I wanted to get this down before we hit the road again.
