When we think of what others speak to us, about us or of us then we need to take a good look at what we are saying of ourselves. If we "know" that there is no one out there, then what we think is being spoken to us is only ourselves talking to us.
In Higher Mind, Lower Mind we speak of awareness, how we obtain this awareness is by becoming one with everything that is said or done, or done and said. As time goes on from doing the processes, or even just taking ownership of our own crap helps tremendously. How are we to ever know why we keep creating the situations in our lives if we don't understand what we are saying to ourselves? For me, at times this has been like "Nightmare on Elm Street".
When husband number two decided he wasn't going to show up for our wedding I was furious. But then a peace came over me and I was able to tell him, "You know what, it's okay. God has different plans for us and I know that whatever that is we're better off single". You would have thought this a good thing to say but what happened next was now he really wanted me. It seemed like I was some sort of prize to have because now I wasn't desperate for him. I married him even though I was glad the wedding was cancelled. Why? Well that's within a process and trust me the love I have for that beautiful angel is beyond words.
When husband three wanted to get married after I was thinking it was time for me to move on was just another situation of the same, but this time just a little different. Again, if I had known about processes!!!! LOL...But when husband three left me I was in x-ray school so they sent me to the school therapist to make sure I was going to make it. I was crying and sobbing my eyes out. The therapist looked at me and said, "Tell me what has this man done for you in your 7 years of marriage?" I looked at her and told her how this man had been. She looked at me, threw her pad on the table and said, "Sounds like you're better off without him. Thank God that he left you and move on with your life." It was the first time someone truly was honest to the point of no return. I laughed and have continued to laugh.
Now husband number four, well lets just say he's a saint. LOL....I mean he is the one that has decided to live through hell with me. It's all the poor souls around me that now have to take on the job of giving it back to me. Hubby does his share of that too, but most of the time we are at peace and completely in love with one another. But then my ego gets restless and someone has to play the dark ranger. However, be very careful of the person that is continually thinking they are doing you some kind of favor by projecting their stuff onto you.
What I have learned is when it's my stuff and when it's not my stuff. When someone speaks of something that I did when I didn't do it, then I know it's time to be gentle and allow this individual to find their way back home. I understand a little clearer what it means to project on to people that I love because I want them to own my crap instead of me. I mean the first time I told my spiritual teacher, "Well, maybe that's for you not me if that's how you see it" made me sick to my stomach. Who was I to talk to her that way? Here she is the guidance that she is and I was rejecting the greatest lesson in my life. The one that would help to liberate me from my illusion. I got through it, we laughed and we have grown closer and closer each and every time we work together.
So why do I write about this? Well the last week seems to have been very trying for many people. A friend said that the planets were doing crazy things and caused a lot of this, which lets me know that people are shifting inside. The planets can't shift if we are unwilling or aren't able to shift ourselves. The planets follow our consciousness in supporting us with what shadows, growth or light we need. People seem to be running towards and away from something all at the same time.
I centered myself and realized how significant this was. What was I running away from? What was I running towards? I got my answers while meditating Friday and continued to have peace while being one with nature this weekend. Which brings me to where I am today. I needed to go through that trail and tribulation to better understand what was happening for others. Of course these others are no one but myself, little me's. So I had some housekeeping to do. That's okay, there's a big difference in thinking everyone and everything is wrong and knowing that it's okay and now assisting the planet in global awakening. You can't wake anyone up if you're still asleep yourself.
So with all of this said, for those that I've touched this week in assisting you to understand your fears, understand your communication and to understand how you project by allowing you to own your own stuff it is my greatest pleasure to have come out from the dark and move into the light with you.
For those of you that still feel that someone else is doing anything to you peace be with you. Peace be with you so that it is with the rest of us. Just because you aren't able to own your own stuff doesn't mean you'll get by with it, but as long as you need to think you can and do, so be it. When you find yourself resisting answering the questions, or telling someone else to own that, or to tell yourself you're the one that's okay it's just everyone else that's not then hello welcome to hell.
Do I process something everyday? Yes I do. I will admit some days are harder than others to find something to process. I know this is God's way of telling me, "You need to rest my child." God knows what we can handle and not handle, He's not here to shatter us but to love us. We're not here to shatter Him but to Love HIM. So to do this means to love our fellow man, especially when it's someone that you can't hardly stand. They are the ones to love the most, they have the most to teach you.
I would like to say I go looking for these types of people, but hey, I have enough of them coming in and on my path when God's ready for me to address it. For me to go out and search it means I'm forcing my will on to God's Will. Let's just say that's not been working for me in the past, so I don't think that's going to change for in the future. So I take it one day at a time now. When I'm ready to deal with something God will let me know.
Blessed are all of us whether we hide from our illusions and continue to fall asleep and daydream, and continue to say that everything is okay and that we understand the lessons we are receiving even when we don't. And blessed are those of us that take it on with all of our being and allow the tears to flow, the shit to hit the fan, and to stand there with our hearts on our sleeves leaving ourselves feeling drained of all illusions and not knowing what to do next. All are blessed, there is none of us more blessed than the other. Take your time, stay in your dream. It's all the same, speed up or slow down.
Be the blessing by listening to your language! Be the blessing by taking ownership of what you say. Remember that when you speak to a person you speak the truth of what is in your heart. This you cannot pretend to do either. Metatron has spoken many times about this very thing. The heart shall be purified and the knowledge within a person shall be made known by the voice of his soul and the love within his heart. You can't pretend to be anything that you are not in the eyes of Metatron. So be kind and gentle with yourself and you'll be kind and gentle on this path with others.
Belief Statement: (I invite you to do your own process today and if you have trouble I will be more than willing to assist.)
Spirit Statement: (I am my process and ease is the willingness to give).
Love, Velvete
