Energy and Power

Wow, what a story I've told myself today, or should I say healed. LOL....so a few nights ago I had a dream about a toaster in a sink full of water. I just put my hands in there and pull the thing up only to now be stuck to it because it was electrocuting me. So I'm have to literally back up from the toast to get my right hand undone from this thing. A voice told me not to put my left hand on it because if I did I would not be able to break free from the charge. After breaking free I unplug the son-of-a-gun and then the dream moves to nurturing a kitten.

Now the week of this dream my phone lines at home and work just go nuts, they won't work. They say lines are in use when there is no phones off the hook. LOL, even at work it said, "Waiting for line", like it was being used. Talk about disconnecting myself. Wow! I had even disconnected myself so much that I almost just closed my business all together. Why? Because I was just so disconnected that I thought how am I doing anyone any good.

This morning as I'm working with my client there was so much love, peace and compassion for her that I felt like I was floating. There was no one present but me. Through her of course! Tuesday after meditating between each client on the hour I was able to be still and hear that heart voice again. That voice was telling me about my space. I thought it was talking about my office space, but only to learn that it had nothing to do with that but rather the space I had confined myself to. I had isolated myself and wanted my very own little pity party. And no one needed to be there but me. I was quite content. LOL

But after taking the time to meditate and listen I could hear my heart again. My energy was peaked and thoughts of how I was continually destroying and running from myself surfaced. My friends and family were amazed that I was able to identify that when I felt unworthy and that things were not working out, how I would want to run and hide by making myself business opening businesses, closing businesses, buying this and buying that. I don't sit there and read these words and say you've never done this, we've all done it. Whether through relationships, food, sex, money, dreams, work, you name it. We all do it!

So what did I do yesterday, I stood my ground. I held firm that tight rope and swing like a mighty monkey. This monkey might not have all it's bananas but at least I can swing. LOL You have to laugh, not to keep from crying, but because it's just funny. I love my story more than I've ever before. Sure I might just have a little drama here and there with myself, but when it's big it's big.

Anyone that is in my world and has any interaction with me knows how strong they have to be to put up with me. LOL...well maybe not put up with me, but at least love me.

So I was able to connect with my heart and hear my higher self again, my phone lines were all repaired today. And you got to hear this, it was only due to a small disconnected wire. LOL The repair guy came out, plugged it back in and there you go, phone service again. The one at the store was only because the telephone line had become disconnected under the counter.

I know now, with help from friends, that I am that toaster. I know that I was fearful of my own power and that fear would be with my words. As I was driving home to meet the repair guy, I thought about all my little selves out there running around. What am I going to reflect to myself now I thought? LOL....let's just say it was an easy ride home and I noticed a new paved road which I never noticed before.

Keeps your eyes open, keep your heart clear and everything else will follow.

Love, V