"A True Gift"

Have we ever really taken the time to be thankful for the things people are willing to show us of ourselves? Are we truly willing to accept that our fears are what destroy our line of communication and relationships? Within this willingness to truly hear and see what is going on there is so much more to discover about yourself. In the Bible is a book called Ester, I got to experience this book first hand today. I got to witness Ester patiently waiting within the chamber to be recognized, I got to see her loving looking upon the situation. I witness Hammond (ego) drive his own stake within his heart. In the story of Ester, Hammond (ego) feels that he is entitled to receive the abundance from the King (Super Consciousness) while Maliki (Consciousness) stands outside the gate observing everything waiting to see what is going to happen. The King wants to reward Maliki but doesn't tell Hammond who it is he wants to reward, all along Hammond is thinking the king is talking about him. When he finds out that he's not going to receive the abundance of the kings hard work he becomes furious and starts telling all kinds of lies in order to gain the kings trust back. He tells the King that all kinds of bad things are going to happen to him if he doesn't listen to his warnings. But what Hammond fails to realize is that Ester has this special relationship with the King and she has been communicate clearly her desires and truths. Hammond is so furious that he wants to kill the king, in which "What comes around goes around" took place; instead Hammond is killed by his own thoughts of rage. Then the king looks around and he's so thankful for what Ester did he wants to give her a gift. Ester says, "Let's have a party instead and invite all the people to join us. And let's give them gifts without telling them about it." The King agrees and now Maliki who was once only the observer outside the gate of the kingdom is now one with the king and Ester. Maliki never pushed himself onto the king, it was only Ester that brought the awareness of Maliki to the king. However, Hammond constantly felt the need to be recognized by the king and adored by the king and his people. Hammond brought fear to the people by making claims that were not true. No one ever saw what Hammond spoke of. So by taking this story of Ester we can all see how at one time or another we allowed Ego to guide us to our own death. But with clear, calm communication and a willingness to be gentle with ourselves and others that now what was once outside the kingdom is within the kingdom.

There are messages that come to us through people without them knowing it, like we are safe and there is no loss here. It does not matter the intent or reason for why the person said what they did,that would be judging them for their own thoughts and feelings which you do not know, unless you ask them. If they are unwilling to tell you how they are feeling or needing then they are only hiding from themselves and they are unsure of what their needs and feelings are.

I am blessed by angels in my life each and everyday. I had one angel that gave me the biggest hug and kiss, with tears in her eyes because Love was being shared. I am super blessed by the dark angels in my life, my shadow self. My shadow self knew it was on it's way out. It gave me that sign earlier "Shadow Lake" with the stone gate. It even said as it was leaving me today, "I told you I was out of here. I told you this was going to happen." Thank you my dearest angel for bringing to light my liberation. Thank you for acknowledging that you, too, knew that you had to die. Thank you for being the support and love that you were that allowed me to see that when I am not feeling complete and happy in my life it's because I am refusing to ask for help. That I'm unwilling to help myself by providing my basic need for love and companionship. Thank you for showing me that when I feel the need to control, dominate and take from others that I keep the kingdom outside of myself. Thank you for showing me that my wealth is in my responsibility in being clear. And thank you for knowing deep down inside what is best for both of us. Even though you are my shadow you are the part of me that allows me my need to feel independent and outside of God's kingdom, so that when I come home there will be no need to look back. My heart is overwhelmed right now with the love that I have for these parts of myself. God, if you would be willing please show them their abundance, prosperity, and wealth as a token of my appreciation for them helping me to feel free and helping me to see my need for liberation. I understand that I free myself from no-thing. I understand there is no reason to want total liberation for I am the kingdom, I am the peace, I am the love.