Thursday "Dreaming of Falling"

This morning I woke up kind of early, heard my husband leaving this morning; but I decided to lay there instead of getting up. I wanted to see what more I could gather from the dream world. Almost instantly I was thrown into a dream where children were in school. This appeared to be an old college that was now a dance school. There were little children, big kids and even adults running around this older school. It was three levels high and seemed dark or cloudy outside. You could see this because there was nothing but glass as walls.

During the dream one of the dance girls is moving her legs around in a seated group and kicks one of the other children in the face. The young girl begins to cry and cry and cry and cry. At first you feel sorry for her but she won't end her story. So immediately there is another girl dancing really close to the glass walls over looking the yard and I tell her to move away, that the glass is fragile and it might break. As soon as I said that it was like she instantly went to lean on the glass to prove a point to me and the glass began to break. I pulled her away from the glass before it had time to give in.

Now it's time for all of us to leave and my husband and I are walking down the stairs to the school and we are now outside. He's finding all kinds of strange animals/creatures in the ditches and others are finding all kinds of interesting birds. Then we are in a shopping center and I'm sitting in this special chart for adults. LOL My sister is there and Dwayne (husband) pushes me really hard down and I start feeling like I'm falling. At this point I'm wanting out of this chart but feel trapped. Then my sister decides she's going to push me down some stairs. In my dream as I look down upon these stairs and realize there is a wall there that I'm getting ready to hit because there is no way for me to stop this thing; just at the top of the stairs I take a deep breath in and wake myself up. LOL...it was so interesting to me.

The realization that I had regarding this order of dreaming is:
1. I could tell the difference in my dream world that the colors were different than in my waking world.
2. That the sensation of falling over and over again never really woke me up.
3. It was my choice in the dream to wake up and by taking the deep breath I was able to do so.

I had read that if you are conscious of breathing you are not dreaming. It seems to work well the past couple of times I tried practicing breathing while asleep, it wakes me up each and every time.

Today I realized through this dream that I want to wake up. That I've kicked myself in my face, I've done things that went against the heart, that I found life interesting enough to be distracted by it and that I can wake myself up by being mindful of my breath. That's a lot for just a few minutes of dreaming. But the end conclusion is that I'm fine, I will survive.

Belief Statement: I used to hate sleeping afraid I was going to miss something and this made me feel anxious. I think I wanted to be awake for the awakening. I gain awareness while losing time.

Spirit Statement: I love awakening to love and receiving everything in peace. I know I am the awakened awakening in awareness now.