Day 215 of 400 "Eggs"

So this morning I wake up pretty early and decide to do things differently. Usually I get up, take a shower, grab my stuff and leave for work to be at the store usually around 7:45-8am. But I thought, why? Why do I do that? I was doing that so that I could get there early enough so as not to be disturbed as I updated emails and blogs. But what I found is this, the earlier I got there to do my work, the earlier folks got there to come in. Most of the time it was just people walking the shopping center waiting on someone in therapy, never really coming in to buy but rather coming in to have something different to do. I felt like charging admission sometimes, especially when they would take up my time asking me to read labels for them and asking the difference between this and that.

Today I decided I would take my shower and relax a bit. I ate breakfast here at the house, washed eggs that I thought my husband should have been responsible for and then went outside to eat. I tried to do the computer thing out there but that just wasn't working for me today. If I had a table that would have been really cool. So I decided to come back in and just take my time blogging and catching up on emails.

My thought for today is about the eggs. I know that I am 100% responsible for myself and what I am projecting so I must begin to see what this means for me. Especially since I had the thought, "He should have washed the eggs." So I know this is not real, and I know that it was me that should have washed the eggs, and that turned out to be very real, because that's exactly what I had to do.

I started thinking about all the things I was doing while he was having the tv blaring instead of washing his eggs, what he should have been doing instead of sleeping, and what he should have been doing because this is his business. Then it hit me....I'm doing all of these things to myself and my ego is on hot pursuit.

I'm willing to resolve my illusions and I'm ready to move forward, but to have the ability to do that means I must be very honest and clear with myself. I find that belief statements help to define the illusion instead of being all over the board.

Dwayne should have washed the eggs and gotten his business done last night and this makes me feel confused. I'm confused because I just don't get his energy level and why he's always having to be reminded of his responsibilities, it's almost as if he's just along for some kind of ride. I'm gaining frustration while losing focus.

Of course this is about me it's not about him at all, so the next part of this is for me to understand and see what it is I'm doing to myself.

I should be washing the eggs and doing my business last night and this makes me feel confused. I'm confused because I just don't get where my energy level is and why I'm always having to remind myself of my responsibilities, it's almost as if I just came along for the ride. I'm gaining frustration while losing focus.

What we can see within my belief, my lie. Eggs represent fertility, new ideas, growth. So with that said we can see a connection. Energy level is awareness. So with this let's look at the truth and then clarify it some more.

I shouldn't be doing anything because I am so those should have got to go.

I am developing new ideas about business with confidence. I am confident my awareness is consistent with my level of focus during this awakening with peace and focus.

Now what's really funny about this statement is this, I was working on greed earlier and how I felt that it was hindering my business while trying to learn a new way of doing things. LOL You've gotta laugh.

After being so upset about the eggs this morning and thinking about what I was going to talk about I open my email and I have a Bible passage their from a friend. As I'm reading the passage I realized what my senses, thoughts, and feelings had done to me, but was awakened on a deeper level that there is something else really going on that is of love, protection, joy, and happiness. The passage validated that the work that we do with the 7 Steps helps in the awakening. The only thing that will separate you from the illusion is your willingness to do so.

We have all gotten so comfortable to what we believe to be happening to us that we forget there is more to us than meets the eye. We have forgotten to wake up.