Wednesday of last week I had a double wide mobile home traveling in front of me that slowed me down and was making me late for my massage appointment. Then just when I think I'm in the clear to go around him he turns in the same direction as I am, but then he makes this great big U-turn. It didn't make sense to me at all. However, I did keep in my mind that something was blocking me from being able to move forward.
For the next 2 nights after that I had dreams of this same house, but this time behind me. The second night was probably the most profound because we were traveling fast down and up this mountain and when I looked behind me (my husband was driving in this particular dream) we were pulling this brown, double wide home behind us. I could see a window broken out.
I called my daughter to confirm with her my feelings and her very words were, "What baggage are you dragging along with you? And what baggage are you letting get in your way?" She was so right!!!! I could see clearly that this was about old beliefs, patterns, and ways that I was continuing to hold on to. I knew this to be true because in the dream this old double wide is sitting on my land and I ask everyone, "Now what?" In the dream I'm telling everyone how much I love my home and how long it took me to get here and I really didn't want this dumpy looking home on my land. However, in the dream I said, "Well if it must stay then we'll have to remove this beautiful home in order to fit this one on the land." This was so clear to me that I don't have room for both. Old beliefs, ideas and patterns always will take over and replace the new ones if we allow it. There's not enough room for both in our lives. We either move forward or we don't, but we always have to make a choice.
When I woke up I was not happy to think that I was allowing old ideas, patterns and behaviors to take over my new light. I was making a choice for the dumpy mobile home rather then the home that we built with love and appreciation. So one must ask, why? Well, in the dream there were people that would not listen, would not change their ideas and did not even care about what I wanted. They all wanted this home! So I gave in! I gave into what they wanted for me, instead of what I knew was best for me. I allowed them to take my light and loving home because I just thought it was easier since this is what everyone else wanted.
People WAKE UP!!!!! We've all got to stop dragging around with us those things that drag us down and turn us into it. I have had my share of people that want what I have and I know I have given it freely, sometimes too freely. But what happens then is people don't appreciate it. They aren't able to because they didn't earn the right to be there. Everyone must have the same opportunities I have to figure out for themselves what they want to release in life to allow their light to shine.
This has been an awakening for me for I know that I must be very clear on the direction I wish to go in life and I need people in my life that will help support me in this. Not drag me down by riding my coat tales and soaking up all the information and knowledge that I have to twist into something they will never really understand until they have the true desire to know for themselves their own power. Nor do I need people in front of me pretending they have my back when in fact they are standing in my way to prevent me to grow and to be all that I am.
And since we talk about creating our reality, I create these situations because of my own fears of leaving behind and moving forward. So no one needs to worry that they have done harm or hurting me in anyway, this is my own doing. With this said, it will also be my own undoing.
I have been in a unique flow for over 2 months now. The benefits of being in this flow are clear. I know to stay within this flow this "baggage" issue needed to come to my awareness. It is asking me, "Are you ready for this? Are you ready to move forward in your enlightenment?" The answer to this question is without a doubt. With this being answered I know that some people will change positions, roles and characters in my life. And because I know this is done out of love for me and my awareness I have complete trust and faith that all is well.
Belief Statement: To see what a load I have been carrying round with me makes me scared. I had no idea that I was blocking myself with so much crap. I gain frustration and lose energy while carrying this around.
Spirit Statement: I see the light and love I carry within. I now know I release this light of peace with energy all around me.
It's just like spring cleaning folks, you've got to get ride of things in your life that make you want to spend time talking about negative crap. You've got to change the people you hang around that are going to support you in pleasant conversations and not feed on the negative in your life with you. If you find yourself thinking about all the negative or things wrong going on in your life then you have baggage...the only way to get rid of it is to throw it out the window and claim your power back. There is nothing in those bags that can't be replaced with something better. There is nothing in those bags that have weighed you down and depressed you that will bring any idea of light in your life.
So do a little spring cleaning and check in with yourself and look at your beliefs, your behavior, your ideas, your hopes, your dreams, the places you want to be and how you experience happiness. These things are here to help you to see what you have inside.
Enjoy!
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Awareness opens the possibility for Alignment and the Willingness to Release. Free yourself of illusions within YOUR reality. What are you creating that makes you feel disempowered?
