Article 671

As I've stated in another blog post the processes have evolved and have expanded into individual processes that can be completed with specific imbalances. This started to occur right before the end of the 400 days of this blogging journey.

Article 671 allowed me to see how I would create being sick in order to allow myself to enjoy not doing anything. We don't have to be sick to enjoy taking rest for ourselves. It also allowed me to see how guilty I have felt all my life when I've done something good for me. And how I would do something really hard in order to "earn" something in my life.

As my husband and I did our Shabbot this past Friday we went into this deep and profound realization regarding my father in law and how I was hanging on to the Tahoe because it was an attachment of a job well done. I almost lost my own life while taking care of my father in law so of course the car was to replace the energy I felt I had lost during that moment in time.

A few months ago I was meditating and a voice said, "Would you like to have a new car?" Of course I jumped up and said, what? of course I don't want a new car. But then I sat there and played with the idea of getting a new car and what kind of car I would want. Then I realized I would want the same kind of car but just better gas mileage.

Within minutes I was awakened from my meditation and it was my son wanting to buy my Tahoe for his new family. He is not single any more and has children and needs a car that they can all fit nicely in. He wanted to buy my car and give me his HHR. I was unsure, but then I realized that this is what the voice was having me consider.

After thinking about it I told him that this was a great idea and that we would do it. But he said he didn't want to do it until spring. So I knew I had my Tahoe until then. But then Christmas came around and I wasn't feeling the same way about trading my car for his, so I just left it alone and we didn't discuss it.

During our Shabbot and realizing the attachments and the projections that I was putting on my husbands truck instead of on myself (our cars our extensions of us) I knew my attachment was keeping me from valuable energy and Source.

Within minutes of doing the Article 671 process I felt this shift of loving, kind energy and I could see how all my life I used my steady, stern attitude as a protective cloak, and how I used illness as a means of getting attention or feeling the right to rest. People all over the world can take those breaks and life just keeps turning out good for them.

I was one of these people that would say, "What did they do to deserve that? I work my butt off and never get that kind of attention. Why am I always the last one?" I realize now that my projection of not allowing myself this down time and just be present and the guilt that went along with the need to stay busy was my reward to myself. No one did it to me, I did it to myself.

For years I would be jealous and upset at my sisters for just playing and goofing off. Why should they get to do that? I never got to be a child, why should they get to enjoy having fun or having whatever they want in life? They're not doing anything to earn it.

It was while doing this process that God loves us all no matter what we are doing. I mean I've known this but not to this level. I mean who are we trying to impress? And of course when we make ourselves look busier than everyone else we really are trying to validate that we are worthy. But God loves us no matter what.

Dealing with this simple belief has allowed MORE creative energy, More simple energy, and more focus. I mean last night I created another scrapcard, I made this wonderful homemade chicken noodle soup and I even got to watch my cooking shows. Wow.

This morning I decided to lay in bed and just take my time getting up. I watched the sun come throught he windows, I listened to the birds, I listened to the cats playing outside my bedroom door, and I just laid there. I enjoyed the blankets and the sheets surrounding my body. I felt at peace and didn't feel that I had to jump up and become numb about my day.

I've already accomplished so much and it's just 9:17. I didn't even get out of bed till almost 8am. How wonderful is that?

You see we are all connected, we are all deserving, we are all love, it's only when we separate our self from this truth that imbalance and stress occur. I remembered telling a friend I didn't understand these women that stayed home everyday with nothing to do. Well, karma here she is. There is lots to do and actually more than you can imagine.

But again it's out guilt. The guilt of being a stay at home mom that makes us feel we should be doing something else rather than being the parent we always were meant to be. Or the guilt of working and not being at home making us feel that we can't focus on our job and do it fully. So as long as we have the guilt within us, we are imbalanced. Always struggling from this to that.

Giving up the struggle allows you to completely be in the moment of whatever it is that you are meant to do at the time you were meant to do it. Got it? I can't begin to tell you how many times I blamed being a stay at home mom for weight gain and would say, "If I worked outside of the home I would be skinny", no!!!!!!

The reason? Guilt!!!! And it could be a number of reasons. I work with weight loss as part of my career and see it everyday. I see it everyday because it's a part of my awareness also.

God has given us so much to be thankful for. No matter what we are doing at this very moment it was created for us and with us. Be thankful today, enjoy your life, and know that God is Good.

Love, Velvete
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