Momma Cat

On my way in this morning I noticed a momma cat carrying her baby kitten across the road. Momma cats carry their babies in their mouths by holding on to the nap of the kittens neck. The babies always seem to enjoy this by just curling up into a ball. They're not flailing around, resisting the means of transportation, they seem quite in the moment.

October 13th and the the 20th we found our little guys. Fluff was first, just born fresh with all the afterbirth still present. As I nursed him to health and became momma I worried that I was going to hurt his little life in some way by not knowing what to do. Talk about educating myself. There were some things I got right and some things I got wrong, but I kept loving him.

Then it was time to wean him. OMG you would have thought I was the most horrible mother in the world. Now I nursed both of my children and it was a very special time for me and them. I felt it helped with the bonding process, as well as build confidence within the child. I was able to see this is also true for the mother after nursing these kittens, to health that is.

But one day Fluff wasn't liking me to much for not doing it his way. He was angry because he wanted that bottle. Now of course they are late coming off the bottles because I didn't know when they would drink on their own. When I took them to the vet he said, "No look, the momma cat would have already given them a dead mouse to eat." LOL. My whole body shook. Dead Mouse?

So in Fluff's resistance he took his paw and just popped me good in the face with claws out. Scratched me pretty good and it hurt like heck. So I took him by the nap of the neck and flung him to the floor. OMG, I thought how horrible of me. Why did I just do that? My husband just looked at me and said, "Now if I had done that you would have been screaming your head off at how I just killed the cat." He's right, even if the cat didn't die I would have said that. He was right in so many ways. I could see someone elses anger and judge it so easily back in those days without giving it a thought of why they were mad and I didn't care, they just shouldn't be this way or that way.

Fluff laid there on the floor with my heart along side of him. I felt horrible and sad inside. This little thing had no idea what he had done, or did he?

As I watched the momma cat this morning I realized that the mother cats do teach there young to back off. I've seen momma cats be so upset with their little ones I thought they were going to kill the kitten. But the kitten would always get up, shake himself off and then proceed to play. That's exactly what Fluff did. He shook himself off and got right back up in to my arms to be loved. Fluff knew I loved him because I had just let him know we don't do that. How many times have we seen children just crazy loose but it's because the parents didn't set boundaries or guidelines on behavior. Now this can go to extremes and can have the same results.

Has Fluff ever done that again? NOPE. Does he come to me to get hugs and lots of loving? You bet. Every morning he can't wait to come into my bed and welcome the morning with me. Everyday I leave for work he wants his hug good-bye. Fluff understood that day that I was the momma cat and that I would be there to help him learn.

So I thought about humans and a thought came to my mind. Are we any different then kittens or little children that need that guidance? Of course not, just because we're old in the skin doesn't mean we are old in the soul. Thinking about this I realized that there are plenty of times I've been slammed to the floor only to ask God show me more how much you love me. It's not always about doing what is right or wrong. There are plenty of things Fluff does that he doesn't get punished for because I know that's who he is. But when he causes other people pain that's when he is taken care of. He doesn't hurt people by the way even though he's a mountain lion. I'm just kidding but he is huge. He's bigger than my sons pug.

But within our own transformation we can begin to realize that it's only when we think that God should be this or that, or give us this or that, or why is He doing this, if He loved me he wouldn't let this or that happen. You see for Fluff, he had no expectation. In his natural state that's exactly what momma cat would have done, see the results of his actions. Fluff doesn't expect a hug because he's been good, he doesn't know that he's acting the way I want him to. How do I know this? Because he was only handled one time for scratching me. He's never been punished for anything else after that moment. He's not looking for approval, he's just experiencing love.

With all that going on in my mind I couldn't help to think that we are some what like the little kittens being carried by their momma cats. We ball up and enjoy someone else carrying us to our destination. Once we are there we look around, and trust that momma will help us to survive and that she knows what she's doing. Then we go on to play. The momma cat has delivered the kitten where it needs to be to grow and nourish itself into an adult cat.

God has made sure we have arrived here safely and knows that each situation or circumstance we are placed in we are going to be fine and grow and nourish ourselves into adult souls.

Belief Statement: I trust God that I am where I am suppose to be and this makes me feel content because I know I am loved. I gain understanding while losing nothing.

Spirit Statement: I trust God and I are here with complete love understanding everything.