As I continued my meditation practice this weekend I was asked to explore even more than before. After meditating yesterday afternoon and asked, "What do you need?" again, I thought, now what? But as I meditated there were a few key words I found myself going unconscious with.
After some time of doing a 7-Step Process with my new awareness I learned that as long as I accumulate karma that I will continue the cycle of birth and rebirth. But then something interesting took place this morning. My husband and I are driving into town to my clinic and I heard that lovely voice again say, "Meditate", so I did . As I was meditating the remembrance of my great aunt showed up. All of a sudden my legs started to tingle and I could not stop of the wave of electricity run from my coccyx to my feet. I asked myself what was triggering such a reaction and decided to 7 step it.
During the process of the 7 steps I came up with her house smells, (judgment) her house was cluttered (judgment), she had too much stuff (judgment). After several minutes of this I said, Okay let's be real here what do I see. Suddenly it hit me, RAIN. It seemed like every time I was there it rained or snowed, and a lot of it too. So while processing it this is what happened.
Belief Statement: I remember visiting Aunt Gert and the rain and this made me feel comfortable because I was gaining love and losing nothing.
Now on first appearance we look at this and say what a wonderful memory, and that's what the voice said as well. But then the voice continued to ask me why did I feel loved and comfortable regarding the rain. I quickly understood what the voice (God) was sharing with me. That even when I am attached to a good feeling I'm still attached. I did see myself more worthy when it rained than when it didn't rain. I also took it very personal when it wouldn't rain, meaning I saw myself as doing something wrong. This form of attachment needs to be resolved to find "true" beauty and liberation.
As we walk more one with God of course it would rain just by the simple thought of it because we are the rain, but at this level of the awakening I'm just not there yet. So with that being said, I know and welcome sitting back and until I full understand that any attachment, even total liberation could be a trap.
This doesn't mean we walk around in our world being numb or aloof. Aloof is basically a form of unconsciousness because now the person is sleeping through the reality wanting to make up another reality. When do you fall asleep? What word is it that makes you go unconscious? For me it was "paying bills"/debt/karma and "rain"/spirit/ God.
When we daydream this is what we are doing, going unconscious. We would much rather be there then here. But what happens is the problems that we have here follow us into our dream, hence, another dream within another dream. This just implies that I don't like it here so I'm going to escape by creating another reality and one that I'm in control of. We learn that even within our own dreams we don't have full control. It's not until we are in full control with nothing that all power is given to our full use. But then again, once you have this kind of power you see there is nothing to use it with or for. All is exactly how it should be and now living within the flow.
Having a non caring attitude about life or just drifting through is up to you. As I've said before the only real choice we have is to wake up. We have many ways of doing this, no one way is the perfect and exact way in doing so because people are on different levels of awareness. Not good or bad, it just is. If you are serious about your awakening you will find away to stay present.
Tomorrow I will write about beauty and how this doesn't become a judgment but a reality.
So please stay tuned for tomorrow.
Love, Dr. V
Awareness opens the possibility for Alignment and the Willingness to Release. Free yourself of illusions within YOUR reality. What are you creating that makes you feel disempowered?
