Day 218 of 400 "The Freaking Alarm Clock"

If there is one thing that I just despise is the alarm clock. This isn't because of what it stands for or what it does, for I appreciate that aspect of it. But what I really have trouble with is "HOW DO YOU KEEP FORGETTING TO TURN THAT DARN THING OFF?".

I don't wake up to an alarm clock, however my husband still does. But there's a game he loves to play, it's called, "Let's see how many times we can hit the snooze button before actually getting out of bed." I say just set the alarm for the time that you need to get up instead of hitting the alarm one hundred times. But what got my attention this morning is that I yelled out for him. I sometimes do this because he's usually in the closet or in the bathroom getting dressed. But this time he wasn't there and then it hit me. I'll get to that later!

I had to awaken myself enough to learn how to turn off his alarm clock, it's not that simple. So as I'm yelling his name and fumbling with the clock he finally comes in to say, "Oh, I thought I turned that off." I've already turned off and he leans down to hug me. I'm not a happy camper.

So I lay there wondering what that was all about. I'm open to receive why do I keep doing this to myself. I fell into a light sleep and I see myself giving a power point presentation and on the screen it says, "What are you angry about? What are you upset about in your life? Then this is what you are trying to control." I popped out of bed.

Alarm clock - to wake up on time, or to wake up at a specific time for a scheduled event.
What was I angry about? - Dwayne not turning off "HIS" alarm and it disturbed me.
What am I trying to control? I want Dwayne to turn off his alarm clock and just wake up and let me finish with my sleep.

Wow....this means so many things to me right now, but the most important is this:
I want to turn off my alarm clock and wake up, but I keep falling asleep.

His not turning off the alarm clock even when he gets up is significant to me because this means; that while I seem to be awake I'm still asleep, I still forget, I still need a reminder.

LOL...this is too funny. I was talking to my daughter till like 1am and after our talk I was pumped. So I laid there in bed and thought about just getting up and doing some work. But instead I repeated the Lord's Prayer over and over again in my head. There were a lot of thoughts that came to me, which I still remember, but then I finally fell asleep. But it just seemed like minutes after falling asleep the alarm went off. The funny thing about that is that while I was saying that Prayer I kept hearing in my head, "Now stay awake, don't fall asleep." LOL

Here I have been mad at my husband for the stupid alarm going off and waking me up but it's what I need and what I've asked for. I guess when I finally wake up he won't be doing that any more.

But now I'm going to take this a step further, what is he getting out of this. When the alarm goes off he will hit the snooze button and then say he wants to hold his bride. Okay, if we know the symbolic message for bride is truth, subconscious, or knowing, then what he is saying to himself is this:
It's only during my dreaming, sleeping state of mind that I feel connected to myself, to my truth, and to my knowing. I believe in my dream world and it's more comfortable to me then my waking state.

To keep hitting the alarm is very important too because what this is also saying is I'm not ready to wake up. I know this is for me to, so I'm not pointing fingers here, just a realization that one of us is going to wake up and the other may not be there anymore.

We will continue to choose people in our lives that reflect the level of awareness we are currently residing and have been able to sustain. I feel that's why in the new world/heaven if you want to call it that, that there will be no marriage, the marriage is with the self. Each self goes through changes and levels of awareness. When you are through with that level, new game, new reflection.

You can't force someone or yourself to wake up, the control. And remember what the dream said, "If you are angry, you are trying to control." Allow it to be what it is designed to be by listening to the signs. If something is telling you to slow down, slow down, if something is telling you to move forward then move forward.

It will be very interesting to see what happens with that alarm clock now! :)

Belief Statement: I hate that the alarm clock keeps going off especially when I've had very little sleep and this makes me angry. I don't know how much more clear I can be about just turning it off and getting up. I'm gaining frustration while losing patience.

Spirit Statement: I love I am awake and aware and this is joyful. I am clear being on the movement up in peace and compassion.

Many of us are fearful of this transition because we've gotten so used to the same old, same old......but NOW it's the NOW.

Enjoy, V