Who am I really? As I was preparing my lunch a few days ago, I'm standing at my kitchen island and a thought occured to me. What if I'm not really here? What if I'm really a 102 year old woman in a hospital experiencing Alzehimers. The thought was gripping and I stopped breathing for a moment. I had to shake the thought out of my head because I began to feel distant, upset and nervous.
It made me realize that all of our beliefs could be false illusions.
But I must say, that the most gripping part of that was this; If I am having a dream and this isn't really happening, then how do I wake up from this illusion? If I experience a bad dream while sleeping I wake up. The only reason that we don't stay in a bad dream is because we don't like being there.
So why are we still in this dream?
Simply this, we have become attached to this illusion, this physical world and all that we think it has to offer us.
So I can't help to think, in those moments of unusual pains, smells, sounds, thoughts and moments of recognition, if I am experiencing life some place else at the same time. We've all had this happen to us where we are driving along and all of a sudden a smell of tobacco smoke, or crayons, etc. occurs around us. No one else is smelling this, so why are we? Is this something outside or inside of us, the mind, or totally something else?
I don't have this answer and I'm staying focused in the moment at hand rather then worrying about where I might "REALLY" be. Because for now I've chosen to be here. But I think it's a message in our awakening. I'm sure this will unfold for me. But I will tell you this, I'm not alone.
Ego: I experience moments where things are unexplainable and this makes me feel confused. I wonder where this stuff comes from. I'm gaining an awareness while losing time.
Spirit: I am the moment where everything is understood and in this feeling of awareness I know the creation come within in my own awareness in time.
This spirit statement really brings me peace because I can see that through my awareness comes awareness.
Enjoy!
Velvete
Awareness opens the possibility for Alignment and the Willingness to Release. Free yourself of illusions within YOUR reality. What are you creating that makes you feel disempowered?
